feels like it's just crashing down on me.
I'm quite lonely actually, I have friends who I see on the weekends or when they stop by for an hour or two on the weekdays...but aside from that I'm always alone at home with my dog.
I want to see my family, I do...but it's more comfortable to sit at home...lay at home.
I lay down a lot, stare at the ceiling just day dreaming for hours at a time.
I guess this sort of 'inactivity' best describes most of my life - only getting out of bed to eat, work, or go to the bathroom.
On the subject of work that doesn't feel like a great achievement either, I work in a business that allows me to make a ridiculous amount of money and working on my own hours - my problem is I only go and work to pay my bills + food + weed + dog food and then I stop working.
Just feel like all the life has been sucked out of my life, sometimes feeling a bit more like a vessel than a person.
My world is gray.
