Well, so I thought it was over with my ex, but I'm not 100% sure it is. We've gone from hardly talking to talking, to hardly talking, etc. Not to mention the few times he has told me I wasn't the one for him. Long story short, we're still talking and we're at least maintaining a friendship. I can't just stop talking to him, like that's not in me to completely stop talking to someone. I've had people stop talking to me, but that doesn't mean I stop being their friend. I don't know if there is anything more between my ex and I other than a friendship. But time will tell. I saw him last week and he could tell how hurt he has made me. I was kinda distant with him and wouldn't let him hold my hand when he wanted to. It was very awkward. But since that day we have been talking a little more and he claims I'm the only person for him, that I complete him and we're always there for each other supporting each other on a weight loss journey.
But anyway, I don't know if he's being serious this time or thinks he may get something when we go to Erie next weekend. A few months ago, he talked me into doing the Biggest Loser half marathon. But since that time, we've had such a roller coaster ride and I got busy with stuff that I didn't train for a half. However, they are having a 5k as well and I've decided I'm going to do that. Even though I'm not 100% trained for a 5k, I have already completed a couple of them this year. The plus side of going to Erie is that I'm going by myself and I'm staying by myself. Even though I might hang out with my ex while we're up there, we're not going together and we're not staying at the same hotel.
All I can say is one day, one step at a time because I don't fully trust him and he knows that. Regardless of what happens, I don't want to lose him as a friend. It doesn't matter what we've been through, he has been the one person who has been there for me on this weight loss journey. According to the scale, I'm already down 10 lbs and I want to keep that going.
