i have grown so much since i first joined this site. never stop evolving as a person. i joined tengaged february 8, 2013 on a friday afternoon when i was bored at work. i was clearly addicted to this site for a point in time because i was so unhappy with my life and surroundings. instead of trying to change them, i submitted to a defeatist attitude and felt like i was helpless. people say good things and bad things about me all the time here and that's how life is out in the real world too. but i am so incredibly happy with myself and my life right now that no one or nothing could bring me down.
i know this is incredibly long and rant-y but i feel like i've been a bit of a recluse lately. i was signing off for days or weeks at a time once i fully realized this site was totally unhealthy for me. its only unhealthy if you can't manage it properly and now i can. at times i feel like i've been through hell and back. when i joined this site i had a long term relationship with a man that wasn't going anywhere, i had put on a ton of weight, i was insecure and had this deep desire to be liked by everyone. i had always heard the saying "you have to love yourself before other people can love you" but the weight of the phrase didn't resonate with me until about a month ago. everyone experiences negativity and i've decided to acknowledge those negative things or people and move right on past them. i'm eating better, i'm exercising, i found an amazing job, i have real plans that i am implementing. if you had talked to me a month or a year ago, i would have been stuck in my neutral phase. life is whatever you choose to make of it.
so yes, i have struggled with anxiety and depression. yes, i have made mistakes. yes, i have treated others with less respect than they deserved. yes, i have shown ugly sides of myself. but i've turned a new leaf. i've learned how to manage the psychological elements and feel like an entirely new person. i just feel like life is too short and too beautiful to not enjoy it and do the things that make you happy. it just took a little soul searching but i found myself. i am so much better.
thank you to anyone that's helped me along the way < 3
K4r4k (Kara) this is an important asset others must do in thier lives.... Finding out whom you are is very important, and without your help IRL matters I would not be where I am today! So I would like to THANK YOU for everything and keep up the work on yourself. Waking up with a smile everyday is the most important thing for complete happiness and always support what you are doing!!!! Thanks for mailing me this blog I enjoyed reading it....
Congrats! I have been applying for administrative assistant jobs at universities too, but i haven't gotten a job at one yet. They always send me an email and say that they already hired someone.