It just sucks when I played my hardest, and then one of your rather friends get to spam you out? You know that, I mean I wouldn't trade that for anything and all. I mean, I carried you like up from here and all, and then you go do that? I'm sorry but I think I deserve finals because I've played one heck of a game, which never came into fruition due to that :/
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I mean, atleast I have my friends and all and I did play a very good game, and it is shown alot, and I play fair, do I ask people to save me? NO. I was legitimately surprised to beat Mangos and Peetah and all, I love all the supporters, It's just that the time I needed it most, it just left me UNFULFILLED and all. I've put hours and hours to work the votes and all that happened
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I knew some of you hate me for beating Mangos and Peetah but I didn't want to be put up with them, I fucking did drama and all, and all that get to them was like "paranoia" and then I come in this and see I got spammed out? THAT'S BULLSHIT. :/ I didn't deserve that treatment, especially, not by my "friend", sorry >.>
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I did my best and all, and it just feels so BITTER to go out like this, I mean fine if people fairly decided, but not like this =/ I'm so sorry I have to bolt out like this, but I guess it's just not kewl :]
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I love all of the support guys, and it really came to me that I feel LOVED around here and all the players that I've played with in the past and in stars, I mean I milked it - I know most of you are gonna be MY FRIENDS and all and thank you for all the support
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I mean, without you, I'd probably just be someone who's gonna go out, but I must say I can be a CLASS ACT because I didn't lose friendship and all, despite of all the lies, because friendship is the one thing I wanna keep and my dream is just ACCEPTANCE
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Thank you :)
First of all, I did have a crazy endgame after all, and it just transcended over to me, due to the negging, and I'm like FEARLESS and all ... that's why, I am getting put up. Next, It takes a skill to GET TO KNOW people, which some just didn't leave up to, that's the secret in my game, and I know I've made MISTAKES too, which I could have avoided or objected, but you know I'm a human too, and I dedicate time for REAL-LIFE and TENGAGED and being one of the last two unnommed and even though after I beat mangos, people felt threatened I fought still and put up people - Yes, I did plan to put up CONNOR/TURNEY [sry guys :[ ] after my nom ... and it did work :]
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I won't ever give up and WON'T STOP, WON'T QUIT this freaking game, I've played so hard, and is behind key nominations, and herein I address to the criticisms I'm facing right nao
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CRITICISM #1: "Relied on Mangos all-game long"
--> First of all, I'm not really in Mango's core as I viewed, and day 1 I am in the minority and all, but I've talked to a lot of people, and then grab them and make me seem like their puppet all along ... but hey, I'm playing a game, and that's the GAME I'm good at, I may not be upfront strategic and all to you, and there are alot of times I kind of turned on mangos [sry =[ ] and yeah, I've worked myself predicament after predicament, and most of the times I've been nommed, got fucked for a tie, I mean if it's a tie, I mean, I'd rather have a 3-way vote and all, instead of speaking your mind, that's why I never got to express myself UPFRONT to people, and the only way I could do it is through blogging
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I love every bit of this comeback game, and this has been my best stars game for a while and all, I take in charge, I've been subtle the first game and getting to know where people's loyalties lie ... I mean, danny/I would have been nommed together if not for my SOCIAL tie with people and all, It did give me time to recharge and work the best that I can to not put myself block after block where it's very easy to have been done due to everyone being online before dc especially near the endgame
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Good luck shabooty and yáll, sorry for those I've fucked but It had to be done.
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Now ask other questions about my game, I'd be glad to answer, it will all be entertained.
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Also, this might be my last showing in stars for a lonnnnggg while, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON - AND IT GOT DOWN TO SILVER :O
I'm in awe to be the last silver standing =] and THE ONLY UNRANKED, don't worry guys, I know we'd all turn to gold someday :]
Woah! The moment I saw myself surviving by a bit of a good and wide margin, so the fact that I survived is really one of the good things to turn around.
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Oh, and while we're at it, I am a guy [alot of those people who knows me know about it, I just love the look like this] Mangos
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Then, I flashback on to people who said that "Yeah, the only people you can beat in a poll is poke/joe/shabooty" ... and it's like ... I've lost faith for a minute ... then I got a PM from a supporter to keep fighting, and you know, I never did give up ... I did my best to give it my all ... and yeah, I DID IT with those people who BELIEVED IN ME.
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Also, I can take CRITICISMS in my game play, but I gotta say that, yeah I did have a fair share of beneficial moves and some mistakes to lead me into being nominated, but I was given a very bad hand at the start, the disadvantage of not knowing anyone, coming in, I just wanted the WHOLE STARS EXPERIENCE
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I didn't play like IN-YOUR-FACE lying, because really, that's just gonna tear up my heart, because I'm a rather harmonious person, and I'm glad to say that I didn't LOSE any friendship on stars ... and they understood my decisions throughout this game, and I'm fighting very hard not to go up - I think yáll could see the real game I have when I post it ... but yeah, I'm just very glad for the support I have
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Eugene, you're an amazing guy and all, I mean, that was like the hardest for me to face, I've always been put up on my first two games, with those from the other side, I've always been victim of split noms, and in this game, we both worked hard, I know, WE'VE HAD VERY different way to get to this point, but it got to a point where people found it too threatening, but this blog is for you and for my supporters, and my critics ... y'know, you're making me FIRE UP and ... this is a continued journey, my day is getting better, no more classes to hold me back
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3 MORE NOMINATIONS ... 3 MORE DAYCHANGES ... and it just keeps on making me feel so scared, but with the support and bonds I've made through all these years, I AM MORE DETERMINED THAN EVER to make it !
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I'm UP again, and atleast I got it to split, but they're just so set on me and all, a lot of lies are going around, and WITH NO MORE SCHOOL DAYS around, I'm SETTING myself on the right track, and I feel like I'M MORE FREE TO EXPRESS MYSELF
So yeah, I've been nominated for 8th, I surely thought I was gonna go up earlier, but I just keep on surprising myself and I've worked really hard to achieve this - I withhold alot of information in the current game right now, because I'm the person who just does not focus on backstabbing and all, I'm the person who's a fighter ... and I value RELATIONSHIPS I've made with all these people.
I'm not gonna promise I can turn the tides around, but I'll do my best to keep it roaring over them, I know what I have been before isn't what it's been USED to right now, I mean on my 2nd stars, the reason I've lost is they put the eventual winner up with me, and this is like the case, but I know I've played a very awesome game, this is my strongest showing in my gameplay, I did struggle early on and fucked myself up, but I have seek that redemption ... and I'm gonna keep on fighting, IT'S NOT GONNA BE OVER for me, I know mangos is really popular and also a lovely guy but I know it's not gonna hinder me to keep fighting, I have that fighting spirit in me, to keep on believing ... and I have faith in myself ... and all, I'm gonna keep pushing forward ...
I never expected to really be tearing up at the support I'm getting, even though they're little, they make me feel like all these friendships I made with people, I feel very powerful and very fulfilled ... and like this is what I felt with being nommed with jaym ... and yáll just kept me believing I can make it ... it's a very magical moment for me, and I believe in miracles ...
In my real life, I've experienced a lot this day, that's been really messed up ... and all and very traumatic, but this site is just helping me to grow on to a better person and I hope to continue my fulfilling and enjoyable experience in this game
So yeah, what's the point, is that even a game ? =/, game of not eating ? so whoever takes the apple will get elimmed coz they didn't fast or something -.-
I have no idea of what Fastings and Frookies are, and how I am unranked now < t.ears > Hopefully, I'd have an idea now
Hey guys, I'm back, It just felt really odd not being in this place for a very long time. I noticed a lot of the old peepz are leaving :'( ... and I've been lurking for a while, I hope stars could cement me back into Tengaged Addiction.
It still feels good that some people still know me after going MIA for a long while, it's like ... I'm still proud that I've left marks for people to know and value which is amazing...
