So, I've lived a life in pixels for like 6 years now, and when it first began I fell into that trap of lying to people because you know they were online...so they would never know?
I also have a lot of scandalous confessions I could unleash about myself.
But, I don't think I'm the only one. So for every confession I get commented on this blog, I'll post a lie I told, or a confession (Some of them are really ridiculous)
I swear that everything I post beyond this point is 100% true, or let me be struck by lightening and hit by a bus and ate by a big blue bunny.
1. When I first got real close internet friends on neopets, I told them I did ecstasy all the time. LMFAO I WAS IN LIKE 8TH GRADE, WTF WAS I THINKING. YOU DON'T JUST DO ECTASY FOR NO REASON. LOOOOL.
2. Maybe people remember my little cyber session with patrick3679 or w.e but before that I really knew nothing about sex (i still really know nothing about boy sex TBH.) And really thought you gave a blow job by blowing =[ To this day, I would still not know how to give a proper blow job. And I'm kind of glad about that.
3. I use to have a crush on jacobexeplosive. like legit. I thought I could change him straight...when I was with a lesbian. LMFAO SOMETIMES I THINK I WAS ON CRACK.
4. One time I had to completely unhook my computer and take it out of my room because I was so angry at myself because I would stay up really late talking to BLONDETOURAGE on skype and wouldn't go to bed, then I wouldn't wake up for school. And I was like WTF WHY AM I SUCH A LOSER. So I took it out of my room for like a day. But then I put it back. I was a depressed freshman
5. During my first stars on lordlost, I cybered with josh742. I was 15, he was 20 or something. I had no clue what sex was.
6. To name all the people online I have ever had a crush on from tengaged would be ridiculous. But I wouldn't even call them real crushes like just..sudden spark? idk. Like a grade school crush that would be there for a day and then I'd be like ok you suck. I guess the next couple of confessions will be people that have had this puppy dog crush.
8. When I get real depressed I start to day dream A LOT like I completely zone-out from real life and imagine how I'd like it to be. So during my 8th grade year, I use to day dream more than I was in school (it got a lot worse in 9th grade tho) and I'd always pretend like my bff teddybear would visit me and would like shadow me a day in school and like walk around and see all my classes with me. I was a very sad child.
9. When I was bff with all my blondetourage friends I'd pretend to act a lot older than I actually was, and like I always felt uncomfortable about it, but I did it anyway cause like I was the youngest, but I didn't want to feel like a baby. But now looking back, I realize why I felt so wrong about it all. I was trying to grow up too fast.
10. I've had sexual fantasies about a few tengagers.
11. I use to avoid REAL LIFE to stay on skype and being in calls.
12. I have pretended to come online drunk like 2 years ago. Now I look back and think I was a fucking loser for doing that, but yolo!!!
13. One time I told wonderland that I was upstairs with a boy in a classroom without a teacher, and she walked in and caught us making out on a table. I had never made out with anybody before.
14. I have a blackmail folder on my computer of naked people.
16. I truly did really like aquamarine. Like maybe just because he was online and I didn't have to mess with his icky penis??? But idk. He's just a real nice guy sometimes, but other times he's the most annoying boy on the fucking earth. But lately, I've been able to tolerate him. But I guess i barely ever talk to him.
17. In my dark, dark, dark days I cut myself. I told wonderland that, and then a few days later I told her my mom caught me...she never did. She still has no idea, and only one person irl (my gf) knows about that incident, and that's only cause she pointed out the scars.
18. I seriously use to have the biggest crush on Callie cuuum. Like that one lasted for a good summer and a half. But it's the crush that really made me realize that I'm totez into girls.
19. Writing is honestly one of my favorite things to do. I love writing stories or even making up some in my head. But I rarely ever do it, and if I do do it, I really don't like to show anybody. Because writing is the one thing in the world I think I'm good at, so if anybody ever told me I sucked at it I'd be really broken hearted.
20. I know a lot of people on tengaged always tell me OMG YOU LOOK SO MUCH LIKE A BOY NOW, but I don't really care. I'm so much more comfortable in real life now that I'm out to everybody. I really like who I am in real life for the first time in my life.
21. When I was little I actually really, really, really wanted to be a boy. Like short hair and everything. Like until 4th grade I grew out of that stage.
22. I use to pretend that in 9th grade I had a lot of friends and had a super exciting life. But I really didn't have any friends in real life at all. I was super concluded to online life. I use to get really defensive when people were like OMG YOU HAVE NO LIFE!!! But now if somebody tells me that I'm just lolok.
23. It sounds really sad, but when I first joined I really really wanted to be popular and got super excited when popular people started talking to me. Like when Alexxandra asked me to add him on skype I almost had a heart attack.
Wow Bengalboy has a serious side! I LOVE THIS start some more drama please ;) I always thought you were just some comedian but nope you are serious for once :OO
for whatever reason, when i was little i loved walking on my tippy toes. I did it everywhere, and now the habit has kind of stuck with me and it's super embaressing when i don't realize i'm doing it..
I am an attention whore in real life and on Tengaged. In RL, I always doubt my looks. i'll do whatever to make myself seem attractive, I've lost weight, gained weight, and completely changed my personality just to make certain people I liked like me back.
On Tengaged, I look up to the higher levels so I was pretend I fit in with some of them, but honestly, I don't.