Ryan/RL10 (Ponderosa)
Ponderosa Confessional 1: Man they got me, I definitely thought the relationships I was building towards the end were going to be enough to help me get to the end, but it's Survivor, you never know who's winding you up and swimming with the tide.
Ponderosa Confessional 2: Just checked in with doctor Joe and I was amazed that I lasted 36 days in that toxic forest without collapsing on the ground, but I'm alive and lost 25 lbs out on the island, which is a lot.
Ponderosa Confessional 3: The ride to ponderosa was a mixed one because I was proud to last 36 days in the game, but I also knew I was only 3 days away from taking the win because I knew I had friends on the jury who would've voted for me.
Ponderosa Confessional 4: The welcome to ponderosa was amazing, saw a lot of allies who I missed out on the island. The only one I didn't want to acknowledge was Bubba, who I disliked the most in this game. And that's probably going to be how it is for the rest of my time here.
Ponderosa Confessional 5: Seeing yourself in the mirror, especially after the game felt weird, I didn't look like myself. The first thing I thought about was the need for a shave and a haircut because man, it was bad.
Ponderosa Confessional 6: After looking in the mirror, we sat down and I ordered a bunch of food, like pizza, burgers and peanut butter, which I wanted since the merge feast because when your away from the island, you don't want to think about rice or beans, you want some real food. And also to go along with my food, Mac sent me a nice piece of fucking moldy bread which looked like he kept under his armpits because it was really sweaty looking, maybe because he was sweating from counting votes, who knows.
Ponderosa Confessional 7: First morning at ponderosa, it's a good time to reflect on the game and what you could've done better, but I made it to the final 5 and had no regrets from start to finish because I think if I think too much about what could've been, it will consume me.
Ponderosa Confessional 8: Given that I only have a couple days at Ponderosa, I took the time to just enjoy where I was and enjoying most of the people I'm with here because this was a great cast, with great people and here at Ponderosa, I can eat as much food as I want, while the remaining people suffer in the toxic wasteland.