There used to be this person in my life, my friend; a HERO to me. They were everything to me. Every day I would get more and more excited to talk to them. We could do anything together, bitch about people we hate, watch scary films, anything you name it.
Things were going great in my life! I had a lot of friends. I was doing well in school. Everything was going great in my life! But then I realized something...
This so called "best friend" really wasn't my friend. This person was far beyond mean, rude, selfish and disgusting. This person was my bully. I know this may sound dumb but it seemed like they enjoyed it too. How could you be so mean? Like are you kidding me? I'm a human too. This person would call me names but say it in a joking way pretending like we are friends. Only then I noticed his TRUE colors...
This person also made my 2nd best friend hate me! They were horrible! And I just kept asking myself this question over and over again; WHY me? What did I do that made this person hate me? I used to love this person. I was confused, angry, almost to a stage of depression.
Then I realized WHY, I was NEVER their friend. Thy never liked me. They USED me. When I figured that out I probably started crying for like an hour in my room. All I kept telling my self was that I have to stay strong and that it gets better.
I decided that I can stand up to them, show them a taste of their own medicine. That was a horrible idea. Now they are even more aggressive and more hateful and it hurt hurts so much. Don't get me wrong I have been bullied before but when your FRIEND BULLIES you that's when it hurts the most.
Will it get better? I don't know. I can only hope and pray. I know people always say it gets better but does it really? It probably will but honestly I don't know at this point, everything is just so bad. This person is disgusting. Now it's to a point where they are threatening and blackmailing me.
And to anyone who thinks this is fake get off my blog. Just leave, you disgust me. You clearly don't know what just one person can do. It really hurts.. it does :(
If anyone would like to talk to me I need a friend right now, I do. I'm just at such a bad stage in my life I need someone there for me. Really, be the hero of the story. Not a villain......not a........ bully.
