So I'm going to write a blog about it, I feel like I need to put it out in writing.
So on Thursday night I went out clubbing in Norwich with my friend Ryan and we ended up in a few gay clubs, the start of the night was good and we made friends with people and then went on to the next club... I saw a few other people etc... THIS IS THE LAST I REMEMBER
I've then been told, we went to another club called 'The Loft' where apparently I was wasted, I collapsed and had a panick attack/fitted/had convulsions on the floor and people suggested calling an ambulance. Apparently when they mentioned calling an ambulance I acted completely fine. (I do not remember any of this OR even entering the club or seeing any one of these people out).
I was then found my a member of staff who was starting work at 6:30am at Tesco (Supermarket) who found my phone and managed to get hold of my Mum, who raced up the motorway and came and got me. She told my mum I was in the gutter of a road convulsing so I was completely covered in mud. (Again, I do not remember any of this OR even being picked up by my mum).
My conclusion to all of this, is that I must have been spiked in either the first or second gay club I was in, when else would you forget entire spans of memory and have things like that happen to you?
Anyway, I woke up Friday morning to find myself bruised all down my leftside, and these are big black/reddish bruises, 2 of my fingers were cut open with splinters in, my right ankle has another massive bruise.. I can send pictures on skype but they're so horrid so I'm not posting it on here.
Then I call the guy I was with to see if he knows anything and he said he left and said bye to me etc, which I do not even recall, which is fairplay because how was he to know I had been drugged/spiked.
He then asked his friends/people he knows who I was apparently with for the rest of the night and they told him that - 'I had a fake panic attack and was attention seeking as no one would give me attention' and 'I was a pathetic useless person and they have never seen antics like it'
Also bare in mind not one of these people wanted to help me, but were laughing at me the next day saying I did it for attention. & Also bare in mind that majority of these people work in the second club I was in - by any chance do you think they're covering their own asses in case I did happen to be drugged in their premises.
It's just at this point it's getting quite out of hand and these people are writing nice little statuses about me and spreading rumours that I do fake attacks to get attention.
I'm sorry but I think I would have to be some psychopathic freak to go and punch myself and beat myself up to this extent to leave those marks to pretend to have attacks and lie to both my family and close friends.
It is just horrible to know that some people would go to these lengths.
Also... in my opinion a gay community should be supporting each other, not coming to rash conclusions without knowing full details and spreading rumours about me... because I actually now feel ashamed and scared to go out to any of these clubs in my own city when I work and live here and as a gay man I just think its out of order..
I also was going to go to the police about the situation, but when I heard what these people were spreading I realised that the only thing they would do is have to write statements and all angles would point to me being a complete psychopath and they would have probably sectioned me..
So yes Tengaged I am in stars this week, but I have a lot going on in my life and I am actually reduced to not having left my house for the last few days and am thinking about deactivating my Facebook...
I just want you to think about how lies as big as these really do hurt people, and I don't want anyone else to have to feel as shit as me..
Sorry for the essay,
but I feel like I had to get it out how rough I feel right now
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Comments
its possible you were drugged lol but we all have our moments :P
Gay communities don't support each other LOL they are vile and nasty places. The one in my town is horrendous. They spread rumours about you, if you dare get into a relationship people will shit stir and make stuff up to ruin the relationship cause you can't dare be happy, and everybody knows each other cause they have all slept with each other. This is why I've never gone to the gay town in my area, I stick to the standard clubs with my friends.
I'm sorry that you had to go through this. :( No one should ever have to go through any of this type of behavior.
If your friends were unwilling to help--all this shows is who your friends really are.
I honestly think that you should go to the police station and the hospital to make sure that you didn't have any medical issue because of this/after this; however, I understand why you said you didn't want to. :/
Hopefully you are feeling a little better now (at least). If you need to talk about it, feel free to message me! :) < 3
Wow this is awful... I'm sorry this happened to you and it sucks that these people are being so nasty to you :(
My advice would be to try to let the dust settle and take a break from going to these clubs, and maybe try to meet people (gay or straight) in other places, or through apps (Grindr, Tindr, Hornet) and make friends and maybe do activities with them other than clubbing for a little while, or go to different clubs than these clubs. I'm sure the dramatic gays that are smearing your reputation will forget about this eventually and move on to someone/something else. Just find people who will like you for you and surround yourself with positive people.
I hope this helped and you can mail me if you ever need to talk. Good luck with everything! :D
LoveLife No problem hun! And btw i think i got drugged one time too, i was in a club with my friend and i had a drink and then i woke up the next morning not remembering anything from my night after i had that drink. It's pretty scary. But thankfully nothing happened to me, my friend just brought me home to go to bed lol.
