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Where I've been. pt v

6thMay 25, 2010 by pablito

I've been gone lots. I come back every two months or so it seems. Mostly for TSC or when someone (that I give a shit about) asks me to, but can't even guarantee that anymore. I only came back this time to write my 2nd anniversary blog and then leave shortly thereafter.

Fact is, even if I wanted to come back and join stars just to be a flavour for once (to survive a 2nd nomination) or try this new famous massacre casting style or do some AlphaBravo group game (the best), I just couldn't. I ain't got time to bleed.

I'm putting lots of time working now. And I love my jobs. It's part of being an adult and I like the money it gives me. I know I've been kinda reticent to talk about my job and school and all that. So I'll just say it now since it may very well be the last time I ever log on here again (although I do keep in contact with various ppl who tell me about the ongoings of tengaged). But I'm a doctor. Yes. I was in grad school to get my doctorate. I'm a vagina doctor, to put it in informal terms. I heal the vaj. Make sure it knows how to be appropriately treated, and that it hasn't been ravaged by freaks and animals. So obviously I put in long hours because of that. I work in little DF these days and I might get a transfer into the big Distrito someday. Ye know? Ke transa, cabrones. Ever since I've been doctoring people, I've not had much alcohol. I'm more sober than ever. It's strange. Maybe someone can help me find my way back. Will you be the one to get me to kike #7?

Anyway, my 2nd anniversary is coming up and I feel that my 1st one [http://www.tengaged.com/blog/pablito/54814/a-reflection-upon-year ] was fake in all of its bloggery - so here's one to satiate the masses (at least the ones I care to talk about).

(feel free to Ctrl+F and if you don't find yourself "tl;dr")

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Here's my fave memory of those I (h):

Skypettes:
JJJJ - Jayne. You were a rush. You know who you are and you are strong. I already dedicated a blog to you. As much as you annoyed me sometimes, you always came at it from a good place, never out of malice, spite or pettiness. You always protected yourself first, your friends second, people you don't hate third. If only life were a game, you'd know how to navigate the world. Unfortunately it's a bit tougher. I'll always remember fondly how much you enjoyed your late night Chicken McNuggets. I think of you sometimes. Best of luck.

BlueLagoon506 - J's right hand woman. You were also a rush. Sometimes too much though. I was there through some of the bad times, but you're in good times now. We've had very deep conversations and I'm glad we had. I'm just glad you were able to make something good of all those bad times in the skypette fights. Yes, I know you got kicked out of skypettes, but we were same circle of friends before.

AlphaBravo - So many times I'd go, you come back. I'd come back, you'd go. I miss those old days with you. I'd go back to them gladly. I honestly doubt I would've stayed as long as I have on tengaged if not for you. I probably would've quit after that rookies we were in. But then skype came around and things changed. I remember when you came back one day and I thought you were leaving that same day because I voted you out of a quickgame, so I introduced you to the NEC. Yeah, I was afraid I'd be responsible for you leaving. And in the end, you've been around more often lately than I have. I'm sorry we grew apart. I'd be up for emailing ye, but sounds like you've closed that door for me. Anyway, I'll keep mine open for you.

oleary91 - Oi, the original chav. I remember when J and kez made fun of you for getting that Bench hoodie or whatever. Heh. You inspired my strange fascination with chavs, and that makes it even stranger that you didn't get further in For the Love of Chavs. Also strange to think that you've played most of my games, yet we didn't really get too close until I left last summer before my move back to home #1. And that's when I realised, that while others come and went, you were always there. And you were always a good friend to me and I never really knew that. I'm sorry for not realising earlier that you've always been behind me through thick and thin. Just know that I've always defended you - whether it meant spamming against friends (sorry TP!), or against others talking behind your back, I always got your back if you got mine.

2cool4school - Oh you. I didn't care about you at first and then you got 5th and went on a rampage. Then I aligned with you in that game where I first won. You've been a great ally throughout and a top notch Irishman. I'll never forget when I made millions of blogs about you being molestable. Honestly who knows. Have never seen ye. But you're good and reliable and glad to have known ye.

BlueStar - Aw, kez. You're one of my fave group game alliances. Could always rely on you. You're a star now - in here and elsewhere. You're a genuine person, and while I can never like sambucca as much as you do, I'd've taken a shot for you. And if you didn't know, you've retroactively won for the love of chavs. I still don't know how I didn't see the magic of the Prince of Chav-Air. You're one of the most dedicated people here. Never change - there's no one like you.

PrincessTeePee - I used to hate you. You would never align with me, that's why. Even when we had similar allies. But then we were forced together with the skypettes. Then I got to know how much you enjoyed alcohol - just as much as me. I admit I've never fully put trust in you in games, but that's because you're such a stingy player. I think my fave trick I've ever pulled on you was sending that racy Harry Potter slash fan fiction in that 10 post. I really wanted you to win that one if I couldn't, because I had never really aligned with you outright before. You're the type to know who to keep close and who to keep at bay but you also know how to keep them within arm's reach in case you need them. That's why you do well (that and your spamming). I'm so glad we got to play in that last survivor.

Jubbzy - You make tengaged what it is. I remember being surprised you were part of the skypettes, because I couldn't imagine being in the presence of such celebrity. But then again I remember when you joined my rookies and we gave you 10th even though you joined because of the cast. Good times. Soz for being an ass in some group games. I just had to stir up drama, it was nothing against you. You've always been great to chat with - especially during late night skype chats, like especially and I mean like especially when you're drunk and pissed. Those are the best. You and your rants. The. Best.

cheznahuf - Well not officially, but you often fell on our side back in the day. From the first moment I laid eyes on you in the cage, I knew I wanted you. Ha! From Genevere and chrissy's descriptions, I knew you'd be a great ally. And luckily you teamed up with Alpha, who I auto-aligned with. Even though you betrayed us early on in the cage, you joined up with us - even through all my trials and tribulations with JJJJ. But you've grown far apart from your roots, I've heard. I do remember the times you told me about those strange "dating" stories early on. And obviously my fave memory was when I drove four hours from Philly just to grade those Spanish exams. You'll be sad to hear that I'm losing my Castillian accent from all my journeys and from everyone that I talk to at work these days. Ah, you were once so close to me, from the cage to survivor to twisted sister. You quickly fell into my favour. I'll never forget Faffy. And thanks for never forgetting her either.

Early tengaged:

nataliecorbin - You hitting on me, despite me being over age of consent. Was cute and all. And hella flattering. If only you were older. But you introduced me to future friends on skype and I'll never forget you for that.

Yankee1006 - When we prank called that night club and I asked about Xaniqua and then I nominated you in stars like a day later. And you still liked me and I enjoyed helping you out, no matter how much grief it got me. Hopes you're better these days - you were too intense for here.

MikeyDKSC08 - You were my first formal tengaged alliance-mate. Yet I knew you were playing me too, so that's why I aligned with others to get you out. But still, glad you won! And because of you, I got to know the famous BlueLagoon506

Nakomis - Most ppl remember you from Cars, and I remember in our first casting together http://www.tengaged.com/game/7830 you told me about that series. That's how I knew from the get-go there was no Jason neighbor. I told you it was awesome you did it and encouraged you to keep on rocking it. Glad you did.

knixuk - http://www.tengaged.com/game/7864 . I thought you were a gentleman for realizing you got outplayed. And you were right to call out Alpha, he had played all sides - especially with the GMT alliance with you and nocaroo. But I think I wooed him so much to my side that he was only playing you. But to be able to talk about the game, the strategy and with you all when you knew you were a goner - that's classy and I enjoyed it thoroughly.

Lexxu - You're a nice guy. And I loved that you were cheering for me in Stars 19 (according to that blog) despite me having nominated you and being apart of that alliance that ruled that game. Yeah, sorry for aligning with you on D1 with Bubbly, Jenny_c and Andy even though both Andy and I knew we were playing you. Anyway, my fave memory was that nataliecorbin was dating you or whatever in that one game and she would come back to trying to get me at nights after talking with you. Going from Maggie to nataliecorbin really didn't work out that well for ye. Soz.

Genevere - You fell hard for me. I'm sorry that I was only a figment of your imagination. By that I mean, I'm sorry for representing something that you idolized rather than something that felt real. I'm just an online persona (at least back then I'm sure I was). You're not the only one that's wanted to meet me in person ha! And even though I'm not in Minnesota anymore, I hope I was clear that what I was and what I represented was just my best charisma, my funniest self and sexiest words. What I am in person? It might not be all that you thought it would be. And I'm saying this to anyone else that might've fallen for me charms. What you see in someone online - it's not everything you get in real life. This escapist fantasy called tengaged - it is what it is - but it's only what we put forth for others to see. Ginny, my fave part about you was that you were so honest and willing to put yourself out there. I couldn't do that. I hid behind defenses. Not saying either way was better than the other. But yeah. Best of luck.

chrissyhill01 - Sorry, but I thought you were a grandma when I first heard you. Didn't help that Genevere was the one that brought us together. We've been great allies throughout. You're a very honest person and genuine at that. From you wanting to PISS ON THEIR FACES at 4:15 am when you woke up from the alarm (but not much longer than hearing seb's neighbors and their unfortunate firework-like noises). That was an amazing stars, but not as much as the one where we took down the establishment together. You worked that so hard and it's my fave stars to date. I've seen you play your best, and you are a great player. I'm glad that your future looks brighter each day. Espero el mejor pra ti. Poco a poco, vas a entender lo que quieres encontrar. Even though others fell to the wayside along the way, you stood hard. And no, you're not that nice. Why can't ppl understand that.

Post-Stars:

dramallama56 - You remind me of survivor and team rocket and the chat with greatxl that we talked about farmville in all the time. and you remind me of my second rooks win when you oleary erikdelko and I aligned. And you remind me of Ben Folds. And that makes me...the luckiest.

blazeofglory - If only we could've bought you in Stars 34 - we could've upended the story. Well I had xl and warrior and if we had gotten you - well I'm sure you'd have done better in that one! Since then, you've been a good ally. Sometimes I couldn't trust you - but you know how to play the game and too much for yourself. But you're a good man and have enjoyed my experiences with you thoroughly.

Richpaca - You're the player I admire most in this website I think. You know how to play people well and you're a great charmer that few dislike you for it. Twice we played stars and we fell on opposite sides mostly - but would've loved to have been on your side fully once. I've seen your stars noms and your gameplay - you play like no other. You're a genuine fellow and wish you the best for your future. You've a good heart.

AndyShields - You're awesome. Have I told you that enough? http://www.dogssaywoof.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/09/whos-awesome1.jpg

surstromming - You were my first stars mentor. I've told Emmaleigh that. I don't think she likes to hear that. But the first day in stars 19 - you guided me and told me what to do. I also asked her as well - but I went with your advice - and it worked well. I like that you like my stories as well. Sorry, but I have to tell you now that I won't be able to make it there for Brasil 2014. I'm sure you can find someone else that speaks Portuguese. And sorry, next time I'm in Spain, probably won't tell you either. Just don't think it'd be right.

Alex1991 - I'm glad we finally aligned in RisC after millions of times of targetting each other from D1. My fave memory is giving you 16th. I'll never forget that. I'll never forget when you mistakenly joined that recent game with me and chrissy and oleary. Huge mistake huh. You'll never look back.

dru - You were always in my skype chats. You had a knack for getting into all of them. I'll always remember futjob saying "pabs" and then Kingmac going all crazy or whatever. And then we'd all vote him out next after we all aligned with him. "That's right, that's right" Best of times. That was the golden skype age - those first skype games when I could see you, dav, emmm, alpha, mets, chrissy, jake, mac and all the others - and it really wasn't a game about alliances or anything. It was just about shitting around. Fun times. Too bad I haven't seen those fun times anymore, otherwise I'd venture back into skype for a good ol bender.

Emmaleigh - I'm sorry I left so early in the morning after our drunken outing. I'm sure it was Yuengling. Not Stella. Also, I'm sorry that while we were at the In the Heights matinee I had to get up to go to bathroom. I know I should've gone at the Starbucks before that. You're a very smart girl, and it's what kept me going with you. And you know how to gamble and hold your liquor. Sorry we've fallen apart. My fault completely. I apologize. My stars (and other) relationships with you on tengaged have definitely defined part of my stay here. I've missed our chats. Even the drunk ones. Although I rarely go out anymore, so that might explain things.

Lesbian - I always liked you. You got my humor, and even after all this time, seems like you always remembered good experiences you've had and you don't forget the people that treat you well. That's an admirable aspect of yourself. Never give that up.

Abrogate - Ahhh...you were my survivor buddy. And thanks for that convo we just had. I bet you didn't know I was writing this blog as we were talking. You're a good kid, and you got good things going for you. I won't forget those survivor nights when just you and me tending the fire. I guess we got along well because I saw a lot of younger me in you. So I hope I've imparted upon you all the wisdom I wish I had when I was your age.

Phenom - You lucked into our tribe. But there was a point when we knew you were in the long haul once you joined us. I think I remember asking you about skype and bringing you into the fold. Ah. You're like the best survivor I know in terms of per survivor entry success. From that point onward, it was magic.

corey1 - I'll never forget when you tried to foolishly convince me in stars 24 on a skype call to abandon my "alliance" and join up with Emmaleigh and surstromming and all those others (yet Emm was already in my core). Or in Stars 34 when I screwed you and rockgoddess over in one of the stealthiest backstabs I've done. Best of times. I made it up for you though when I made good on my promise to get you to the finals for the first time ever - even if it meant that I knew I was going up for 4th once again. My goal was not to make finals myself (would've been nice though) - but always said it took a better player to get you to the finals finally. Sorry Alana and Maggie - it's my fault.

Kaffreya - Thanks for inspiring me to write blogs. And some real discussions we had. When you laughed at me rubbing my ass on a tree, it was the beginning of something new. Makes me feel like Vanessa Hudgens at a New Years Party that I don't want to be at.

Maggie - You invaded like almost all of my stars. I enjoy your company, but now that you've seen this blog, the answer is No. I'm sorry I will not join that game that you're going to ask me to join. You do it all the time, haha. Best memory of you has to be when you and I negged bluelagoon and oleary and darren and got you that HoH and we took that game so that I could win it and buy blue and join stars 19 with you. The beginning of a great friendship.

supergoten - GO Team Rocket! I miss that game. I have no time to play pwo. Sorry. Also - if I had been playing for myself, I might've joined up with you in stars 38. But I wish you had gotten better in this last stars, and I'd've voted you if I was online.

Uskyld - We were good together back in the day. Don't regret knowing you at all. I'll never forget our mustard and horse speeches. Or how you thought JJJJ was behind me unfriending you. But most of all, I'll never forget mustard and horse - and that 6 am convo with the birds chirping out your window. I think that night particularly sums up my stars experience.

TheGreatXL - Always a good man. I don't think people truly appreciated your game in your first stars win. Both you and I aligned and fooled seb into thinking you were his pawn, when in reality - we were able to screw things over, even if only a short while. And after that, you kept trying time and time again, but Maggie refused to budge. I know you played a strategic game that stars, because you played with me, it was not a pure flavour win. I hope you come out of the woodwork on skype once xfactor hits again. I'll need your help finding a live feed! Sorry but I'll never be the guy you can have, I'm not anything you can have as I don't play that field, heh. You always knew though and that's what made it alright. Don't worry you weren't the only gay guy to hit on me - even if you were one of the most persistent. Nope, sorry, you can't turn me.

Phanne - You and me should do Happy Hour sometime. I'm glad I did enough to get a mention in your two year blog. I do regret not keeping in more contact with you. And I'm very glad for that convo we had when I returned to skype on 1 Apr for that one day. You were the only one that managed to snag me into an engaging convo. You had me at:
[4/1/2010 9:08:11 PM] The Official Dr. Pabs: (*) Stock Alert! (*)
[4/1/2010 9:08:56 PM] Anne (phanne): i need a link!!!
[4/1/2010 9:09:16 PM] The Official Dr. Pabs: [pornography link]
[4/1/2010 9:09:28 PM] Anne (phanne): I fucking love you
[4/1/2010 9:09:34 PM] Anne (phanne): where hav u been?

AlanaDee - I was always confused why you were on tengaged. But I think you define for me completely how tengaged can be an enjoyable escape and not a death trap. For many this place becomes life. But didn't seem you took it that way. Loved aligning with you, and I don't think I joined a game without aligning with you first, so that helped. I love your stories about teachers and I worked with many teachers before, so you only reinforced my love for that field.

rippyroo - Thanks for helping me survive my first nomination in stars. I wish it was more on my behalf, but your move has always earned my gratitude. You're great kiddo - you'll go onto better things.

scummers - Thanks for your help in spam. Maybe I'll see you guys on the other side again.

kirkitude - You're a good kid. Late nights with you and me and chrissy - I remember those. Glad that you were part of my first survivor journey.

IrvinIcon, Lockie, IAmPaxton - Ah you fellows. You used to be my late night entertainment every night. Great times we had. Definitely made me late in the mornings way too many times more than I'd care to mention. I know I wasn't a big talker or anything, but was comforting to know I could always rely on you guys late nights.

Anyone I've aligned with in a game - You're awesome because you cared to talk to me and I value people who can keep a convo too. If I kept true to our word, it's because I saw you as genuine. I would've backstabbed you if I didn't trust you fully.

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I'm done with the people I care to mention to start. I'm sure there's more I should mention but it's quite late and I've got to work tomorrow plus tomorrow night. And then there's Glee in between. So perhaps best for me to go to bed. Well if you think you should be mentioned - say so in comments and I might reply back to you in the comments section - if I care to log in again. Sorry if I sound mean, but I work lots. Not my priority to come back here. I've kinda moved on. It was my time. It's not your time yet if you're still around here. You'll know when it hits.

As for where I've been. I think you all know now. As to where I'm going?

Based on all of your suggestions - http://www.tengaged.com/blog/pablito/433230/where-am-i-going - Oslo! Next week!

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Happy 2nd anniversary pabs! May you not be here for your 3rd!

Sent by pablito,May 25, 2010

grats

Sent by MoreBeastThanYou,May 25, 2010

delete the xtube.com in phannes part and this comment. :X

Sent by lemon5029,May 25, 2010

Oh Pabs!!! :')
Stingy? that is bad?!?! LOL i dunno much what it means...but it sounds bad LOL!
seriously though, you're a legend, and contrary to what you thought of me, I always liked you, knew you were one to be respected...idk why we were never close allies tbh :(. But our surivor was really good until you were evicted...and that was a good 10post too! Tried to win, 2cool was obv stronger :P. Buttt that harry potter fic was hilar...I remember we had a great convo, but the game died so we cant reread D:

Happy anni man. Plz doont disappear for good!!! &...I dont spam! :O

Sent by PrincessTeePee,May 25, 2010

I love you Pabs! Happy anniversary!
Have fun in Oslo, but I miss you!
I'm glad you've moved on and you're enjoying work and life. I don't think its 100% necessary to stay attatched to Tengaged forever.

Sent by dramallama56,May 25, 2010

omg pabs!!!! i'll trade teacher stories for vaj stories! those are way funnier than teacher stories! keep in touch please! xoxo

Sent by AlanaDee,May 25, 2010

LOL @ my paragraph....a nice account of "us" lololol

Sent by cheznahuf,May 25, 2010

+10
Welcome back!

Sent by Scheuerman14,May 25, 2010

glad to hear everythings smoothed out pal, hopefully you can come back someday

Sent by BengalBoy,May 25, 2010

Pabs <3 Yeah I was a horrible player that stars, and if I had went with you, who knows where we could've gone. Glad to see you back and sorry to see you leave :(

Sent by blazeofglory,May 25, 2010

<333333's :)
I <3 U :)

Sent by rippyroo,May 25, 2010

<333

Sent by BlueLagoon506,May 25, 2010

You the best

Sent by oleary91,May 25, 2010

LOL I love you
hopefully this isn't the last goodbye but if it is you're hilarious and GL with it all!

Sent by FrOntIeRpSyChIaTrIsT,May 25, 2010

pabs <3
i haven't played pwo in ages either lmao

Sent by supergoten,May 25, 2010

Aww hopefully it ISNT goodbye, thanks for the mention, and I hope you dont leave us forever!

Sent by Richpaca,May 25, 2010

awww pablito! So ironic because I was talking about you yesterday! I hope you are excelling with your endeavors, no doubt that you are. I still apologize for the stella :( my bad! I think you need to make a quick return and join a game with people you e-love.
It was nice hearing from you. Don't remain a stranger dude.
I still have that photo of you where you let your friend practice his photography :)

Sent by Emmaleigh,May 25, 2010

aww :') thanx pabs and hope you're good and life is treating you well.. yayyy for winning love of chav, I tried so damm hard.. You're the first person I ever sang too so think yaself lucky! :D
take care and stay in touch :) <33

Sent by BlueStar,May 25, 2010

Pabs you are the best :')
I wish you were still here often cause you are one of the people I got on well with the most!!
This better not be your final goodbye, because well... I just have this feeling we will go on another decent survivor run together!

Sent by Abrogate,May 25, 2010

Hey Nasty Natty C!

Sent by Alex1991,May 25, 2010

*sips wine*

Sent by Kaffreya,May 25, 2010

No seriously, probably will be final goodbye on tengaged. It'd be a miracle to get me in another game. Took five tries to get me in that last survivor, heh.

Sent by pablito,May 25, 2010

PABS <3

Sent by xexplosive,May 25, 2010

+2

http://www.tengaged.com/blog/Beuchy/485938/my-hair

Sent by Beuchy,May 25, 2010

u r the fuckin best.

hands down.

Sent by Maggie,May 25, 2010

Happy 1 year, going back and looking at that epic game was amazing. Even though we drifted apart, you are an amazing guy, and I'm glad to hear your life is going so well Dr. Pabs :)

Sent by Uskyld,May 25, 2010

Good to see you back Pabs, even if it's just briefly.
Take care

Sent by Alegeeter,May 26, 2010

DAMMIT. I MISS ALL THE GOOD STUFF!

oh, and did you know that xtube link you gave me was porn? So I took all my money and invested it in porn stock. When my returns come in, drinks are on me. (yes. literally, ON ME.)

(i hope you read this)
(i love you)

Sent by phanne,May 26, 2010

It will never be goodbye. @_@

Sent by IAmPaxton,May 26, 2010

just no vomit (on you). k?

Ok, last time checking. Since it's official 2 year thing and all.

Bye!

And one last time.

Penis.

Sent by pablito,May 26, 2010

Yes, you can hold my hair. All of my hair. (Anywhere on my body.)

Sent by phanne,May 27, 2010

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