Thought I would regularly post my thoughts regarding the world of Tengaged. As a 51 year old white collar professional working in Catholic ministries in North Carolina, the 3 years that I have been active on this gaming sight has been interesting to say the least! From time to time, I will post such observations to offer others the view from this side of my computer.
First Observation:
Tengaged means different things to different people.
Each of us was drawn to this site for different reasons. I am a fan of the tv show, Big Brother (USA) and initially found this site by referral from a fansite for the tv program. I have a medical condition that limits the dexterity in my fingers, especially when I am trying hard to focus their movement. Practicing on Tengaged helps with this somewhat, although I totally suck at comps because of it. Most people come to Tengaged for completely different reasons.
Primarily, I think the majority of the players here come for social interaction. For whatever reason, many players here seem to have a hard time getting their needs met from friends and family in their "real lives". Given the large proportion of players on this site who consider themselves to be gay, it saddens me that so many young people with such struggles dont have familial support and nurturing friendships in their real lives. It makes me proud that Tengaged provides a safe and protective environment for young people, whatever their struggles are.
Tell my your thoughts about this. I hope you have a good day and can find some use for my observations over time.
I have been on tengaged since 2009 and never played in a stars game and until the Hunger Games started, it seemed that everyone always wanted to play Stars. I joined because after all this long, I just wanted to see what it is like.
Some people know these things about me, but they bear repeating:
I did not join Stars because I think I am some great Tengaged player. I am not. My profile makes it clear that I suck at comps. While I have gotten some better over the years, I still suck and cant keep up with the good players on Tengaged. The comps that require some thinking, like Numbers, I am usually one of the best. But most of the challenges require a quick and nimble finger dexterity that I do not have. I have a medical condition that causes my fingers to shake and freeze up the more I try to move them quickly. So most challenges are really tough for me and the sad part for me is that when I am in Survivor games, that when my scores are important to more than just me, it really makes it hard to do well. Anyway, we all have crosses and I am used to it.
I do not join games because I am some diehard competitor. I am not. I am here because I wanted to practice moving my fingers to improve their movement. After I joined, I was mostly taken in by how I saw so many new players join and how the sensitive and the not so good players got picked on and treated poorly. I try to help noobs as much as I can and this is why I join every charity game I can to help people even if i dont know them. (My KPG sucks primarily because I join so many games and really dont care about my placement). To this day, the reason I love Keyston (Rylee) so much is because when I was a noob and no one would friend me, he allied with me and helped me do well in a game. I never forget a kindness and I know this site is more than the assholes that like to run over people or treat people like shit.
I am happy in any game I play if my scores improve, even gradually, from before and if I can make through the game without having to evict a friend. Some of you have made comments regarding that I dont spam a lot. I dont like getting HoH especially in a game with too many friends. The only time I feel bad about tengaged is when I have to vote against a friend.
For the record, I do NOT ask to be voted out of games when I am nommed and expect to lose. I only ask to be evicted when I am up against a friend or someone I am working with in a game and they need/want to win worse that I do.
Finally, regarding this Stars game. TBH, whatever my placement is will be fine by me. Already I am being overwhelmed by emails and blog posting either for me or against me. For those that are supporting me or encouraging me, thank you I really appreciate it. For the others that are attacking me, all you do is make me question what kind of person enjoys attacking someone who sucks at comps and is no threat to them just because you can? For the record, I am an accomplished professional person who make a difference in the lives of the homeless, pregnant women and single mothers with children. I have 23 godchildren. I have friends and family that depend on me and my life is built around helping people in my life. The opnions of some teenaged kids that must be bullied in their real life because they have so much internal rage built up does not bother me. It engenders pity.
Finally, I am older than all of you. I try to be a friend and to be kind to everyone who is kind to me and others. If I am nommed for 16th against someone who wants/needs to win Stars, please support them instead of me. For those of you sending me kind words, thank you. It means a lot!
