don't feel obligated to read. it probably isn't very cohesive or even that interesting, but i enjoy writing to let out my emotions.
last semester, when i started school, i didn't see myself going greek at all. i'd traditionally had a really hard time making friends with guys, and i thought it wasn't for me. by the end of the first week, however, i decided i would try it. greek life at my school was nothing like i'd expected, so i thought it might be for me. i had a few friends in this one frat, ΔΧ (Delta Chi), and thought i would rush it. i only went to their events and got to know them really well. i felt like i was really connecting with them and i absolutely fell in love with their brotherhood. starting wednesday, their events became invite-only. tuesday night, i stayed up waiting for an invite that never came. i was emotionally wrecked for a second. i thought i fit in really well and was a shoe-in to become a member of their organization, but ultimately, they thought otherwise. i never got an explanation, and the majority of the brothers avoid speaking to me when they see me on campus. i have really bad anxiety and it made me feel like there was something wrong with me and that it was my fault. i eventually got over it, but i thought about it at least once a week.
fast forward to this semester, and rush came along. a lot of my friends are in sororities and really wanted me to rush. i figured i would give it a try and went out to a few events. one fraternity, ΦΚΤ (Phi Kappa Tau), really stuck out to me. they were very down-to-earth and seemed like great guys. i went there every night of rush week, and got invited back for their wednesday event. after the whole d-chi thing, i was convinced that i wouldn't fit in with greek life and the invite made me really happy. i didn't know if they were going to bid on me, but i know i really liked them. however, i was so anxious about the situation, that i almost dropped out of rush and didn't go to their event. i worked up the courage to go, and realized that these guys are right for me. tonight, they had their last event of the week and i was pretty confident. before the event began, i wondered if they were really interested in me or just trying to have more options or would realize they didn't like me. i went and remembered why i loved ΦΚΤ. at the end of the night, the president pulled me aside and gave me my bid. he let me know that he appreciated how true to myself i was, and that no one in ΦΚΤ had ever said a bad word about me, and that he was really impressed with what i brought to the table, and was excited for me to be a member of his brotherhood.
it may not seem like a big deal to most people, but the piece of paper inviting me to this fraternity is huge to me. the fact that i was able to overcome so many inner-struggles to join this organization is amazing to me and i'm so excited to be apart of this brotherhood.
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AUSTIN ❤️ I love you hun and im happy for you, enjoy it to the bet of your ability!
