My long distance boyfriend is in the hospital. I haven't heard from him since 9pm last night. I am sick with worry and feel like it will never end. I wrote this a long time ago hoping to never again feel this terrible anxiety and nauseating dread. Figured I'd post it here, maybe it'll help remind me that I got through it once, maybe I can get through it again :(
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Waiting
Waiting and watching.
Patiently abiding.
Silently exploding,
waiting is so frightening.
Drowning in images,
heart is racing.
Secretly wondering,
the agony of waiting.
Answers are eluding,
focusing intently.
Waiting's like a toxin
killing so gently.
Eternity's approaching
still waiting, waiting.
Longing for the answer.
Always mentally debating.
Time is the enemy
hiding all the answers.
Sick of all the waiting.
No choice, no faster.
No way to escape it,
sick like cancer.
Waiting is the only way
to find out the answer.