I've been intending to make this post for a while now, but since my final group game is over, I'll finally post this.
Basically, I'm gonna be walking from this site permanently. I'll log out from my account permanently (even if I still have the password). And I'm doing this for 5 reasons:
1) My grades. I failed Junior Year equivalent in an extremely rigorous high school programme and I don't want this site to be a reason why it happens (I went from Dean's List to failing). Perhaps TG was not the cause but if it isn't I don't want it to be.
2) My mental health. Over the past year I've suffered a lot of anxiety and personal issues which have resulted in my extreme and erratic behaviours in the past 6 months, since the lockdown and subsequent reopening. Ryan right now, is not the same Ryan when he first joined Tengaged. My mental state has been completely crushed to smithereens and I need time and space to find myself.
3) The toxic behaviours perpetuated from this site have resulted in me doing and saying things which I feel I am uncomfortable with. Top blogs have been completely full of shit and even talking to some players makes me question why I continue to play on this site.
4) This site is almost dead. Randomize promised big changes but it was just a site logo. Since lockdown is long gone, there are only a handful of players left on this site, which makes these games extremely boring. I'm not gonna slog away on a site like this.
5) I feel this site has become a waste of my time. I'm waking up at 4-5am for each group game because I'm ahead of everyone by 12 hours, and that has radically changed my body clock in ways I do not want it to.
But with that being said, I had fun for some group games.
Firstly, I'd like to thank the hosts of the various group games I've played: Purplebb4, Suitman13, iYBF, s73100 and two other hosts who shall not be named for the fact they caused a lot of harm to me.
And Vlad21 and IceBeast for bringing me onboard the V&W Production Team to work as a logo designer. The best times came from these.
As well as the friends I made on this site: Duffybutt11, my absolute ride or die, DarkTyphoon23, Natepresnell, sihz and harrywasnak for being the absolute kings they are during SARS1, and BringBBUKBack for being the first person who I talked to in my first castings a year back in the gym while I was cycling. You've been gone for 369 days now but I still treasure our friendship.
With that being said, once this blog has completed its 24 hours I will permanently leave the site. I will also be blocking everyone I know on Skype and leaving all group chats. Thanks for the memories, but I feel and know it's my time to leave, for my mental health and sanity.
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I think it’s time for me to also reveal some stuff Gabe skimmilk4 said to me.
If you don’t know who I am, I’m Ryan, I’m 17 and I’ve been on TG for 7 months.
I met Gabe on a casting game (https://tengaged.com/game/196259 ) and through that period we were quite friendly with each other, and he was really flirtatious and messaged sexually inappropriate stuff to me over private chats.
Around the same time I applied for Ian’s Survivor: Konoha. In this group game, I immediately found out that Gabe was on too. We aligned together for a few votes. At the sixth vote, he suddenly turned around and voted for me, for no apparent strategic or personal reason. I didn’t realise that, and he kept the act up for the merge vote.
Immediately following that, he messaged me over Skype, asking if we were still friends. I told him straight up that I knew he had turned, and in turn he questioned me if the person he voted for was my friend. I said yes, and he told me that I didn’t talk to him whatsoever during that round - which is clearly untrue, I did speak to him. He lied and told me that he didn’t vote for me, and asked why he would ever do so.
This is where he started presenting his possessive behaviour. He accused Duffybutt11 of telling me a lie, stating that (and I quote) ’he’s had it out for me the whole game’, ‘cuz I was friends with you I think and he wanted you to himself’. This is clearly untrue, we were in a three person alliance the whole way. I alone figured out what was going on, and Bubba had never wanted me to himself. I told him I never once treated him as a third wheel, and he responded with ‘he was your priority, YOU WERE MINE’, and that I was petty, and Bubba had told everyone to vote for him.
I told him that he was being possessive by stating that I was his and whatever he said was fucked up. He told me he ‘didn’t have beef with Bubba’ in contradiction to his earlier statement. He told me that I ‘had a territorial dude in [my] corner that wanted nothing to do with [him] and threw [him] under the bus every chance he got’. He continued telling me I was fake, only concerned with others, and that ‘there is no jealousy involved’, despite clearly displaying jealousy with the YOU WERE MINE statement. He told me I was being paranoid (which in reality only he was), that he didn’t remove me from a group chat which he did, and that everyone was accusing him of flipping. Gabe tried gaslighting me to reflect his own infidelity problems (this happened around November 2019) and others.
Now, obviously reading the rest of the blogs, I finally understand the reasons for his explosive behaviour. My case doesn’t even come close in severity to what I’ve read so far, but if there is one thing for certain: it is that Gabe is a disgusting, controlling, perverted, possessive, territorial pedophile. But thankfully I realised that if I continued talking to him it would become a larger issue and thus promptly blocked him on Skype, and filtered him out on TG.
I am glad that many others are sharing their stories about his manipulative behaviour and are taking a stance against a person like him. I stand in solidarity with camell22, The_Kid, 13bam and potentially others who have yet to speak out of their experiences.
