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Got Orange Level! Dec 3, 2015
Haven't been playing fast games lately but just casting and rookie, but proud of being able to finally save up and buy orange level. I'm so happy! :)

Esp when the last few games was full of drama, bullies, multis and just all sorts of crazy stuff (like I get it when people argue or disagree or even lie during the game, but the last few I was in just left me in shock.) Would love to thank amazing people like RobiLee that kept me sane :)

Anyway, hope to see what else tengaged game has to offer now that I'm at orange level!
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Being told to kill myself on Tengaged Nov 18, 2015
imageWhen Rockslide says this during a casting game http://www.tengaged.com/game/145604 :

40 min ago
Faggot stop negging, kill yourself because no one would care if you did.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I mean what else do I really have to say about this person (the part of him being a person is really questionable if you asked me) and he also told me to get burnt on a stake.

There wasn't even an argument because all he did was insult me with degrading terms and with no context whatsoever. All I did was refused to be called a "faggot" in way of an insult and pointed out the origin of the term and why would it be problematic if used as an insult.

What am I even supposed to do with people like Rockslide on this site? I mean yea they can't hold a decent/intelligent conversation with reason so you can't really win at this because they only have one method of going about things which is to yell profanities and telling people to "kill themselves" ( Rockslide doesn't even have the actual guts to physically hurt someone I believe).

I suppose all I can do is spread the message and raise awareness about this issue with love and kindness.
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When he uses the term "Faggot" Nov 18, 2015
Rockslide uses it as an insult and claims that he just means it as calling someone "shitty" like a general insult.  Is there really no better adjective you can find in your brain to use -- one that is not only more politically correct but also more accurate for the point you're trying to make?  Well I doubt he actually had a thorough understanding of the word since he think he could just use it to mean "shitty person"

I agree the meaning and implication of words can have less of an impact or loses the harshness of its' original meaning over time. I think you should use whatever words you want. When some people use it, I can see it's funny, and I don't care. Now I understand that he wasn't using it what the word for its' original meaning and yes some people will say it's just a word and it doesn't have power over you unless you let it.

Let me just start with the point about "it's not gonna mean anything unless you give it the power to." That would be correct if it's a situation like when someone called another "Fat." The term "fat" itself is not in any form supposed to be degrading or an insult, so if I'm actually big in size or over weight, I could come to peace with it by thinking "well, I am fat, but it doesn't make me less of a person or less beautiful." I can take it as a word of description and not insult.

Rockslide justifying his use of these words by saying "I didn't mean it offensively" (well he actually did mean to be offensive because he calls me that to insult me along with other things like trash or ugly), and that doesn't make it okay. Not only does it show ignorance, but it also shows a concerning lack of intellect. Yes, context is important.

Now I'll explain why the term "faggot", when it's used as an insult to someone, becomes problematic. Are you interested in what it ACTUALLY mean to gay men? Well, the word 'faggot' really means a bundle of sticks used for kindling in a fire. Now, in the middle ages, when they used to burn people they thought were witches? They used to burn homosexuals, too. And, they used to burn the witches at a stake, but they thought the homosexuals were too low and disgusting to be given a stake to be burnt on, so they used to just throw them in with the kindling, with the other faggots. So that's how you get 'flaming faggot.'

As Casey Cavanagh puts it in her article for Huffington Post:
You don't get to impose your own meaning on words and use them on, or against, other people... at least not while holding the ignorant belief it will go without ridicule -- that the context you're using it in is excusable. You can't reclaim something without a thorough understanding of where it came from and the problem surrounding it. And the fact that you use it so carelessly leads me to assume you don't have that thorough understanding.

You might wanna know that every gay man in America has probably had that word shouted at them while they're being beaten up, sometimes many times, sometimes by a lot of people all at once. So, when you say it, it kind of brings that all back up. But, you know, by all means, use it. Get your laughs. But, you know, now you know what it means. So if a homophobic person actually uses it as an insult, he's actually using it correctly since he's against homosexuality. Not that it's okay but at least he would be using it in the right context because he does want to insult a gay person and he stands by that.

Rockslide claims it doesn't bother him so he can use it whenever and however he wants. While that's partially true, it doesn't mean he can entitle me to just "grow up", take that term and accept it when he uses it as an insult against me. That's not how "grow up" works.

Be responsible. Hold yourself accountable. Pay attention to the words you use, the way you articulate yourself, and be aware of how the things you say may affect people around you. At the very least, take the time to understand the origin of a controversial term you use and the meaning it has for other people in our society before deciding not only whether or not you have the right to say it, but what feeling entitled to do so says about you.

I'm sorry to my fellow mates in the game that it turned into a constant argument with him during the game and probably ruin the atmosphere.: WitZ ZachTansey rozlyn Raiden muffinman But I don't think I should just "suck it up" and accept the fact that he's using that term as an insult against me and just do nothing to stand up for myself.

If Rockslide was just using it generally I probably just let it slide but when he's using it as an insult to personally attack me, I'm not gonna not stand up for myself and let him bully me. That's how bullies like Rockslide actually wins and get away with things like that.
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Let's talk about Cyber Bullying on tengaged Nov 16, 2015
Following up on my previous post on what happened to me at RobiLee birthday game where I made a mistake for not knowing the rules (which was never really explained in the first place) and got yelled at and called a bitch, cheat and other profanities by Swaggy

Then I'm in another game which Rockslide is also in (who's also in the charity game) and out of nowhere he just called me ugly and trailer trash which was straight up rude.

I know it's just cyber space and words from people that don't even matter but I just don't see the point of being rude like that. Whatever happened to common courtesy? Does that just get thrown out the window 'cause we are on cyber space? We don't really know each other personally and we mostly (at least I think) are just here to play and have a good time. What does insulting someone like that really do anyway? Does it make the bullies feel better about themselves?

I understand insults get thrown at each other during a heated argument but what I've been seeing here is just kinda out of nowhere and I don't seem to find a good reason behind it. If someone has a negative opinion about me I'm open to discuss it further and maybe I am the one in the wrong and which is okay because we all make mistakes. But just being a jerk to someone 'cause people like Rockslide and Swaggy feel like it is just sad.
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Why are people so mean? Accidental Charity Rookies Game Nov 15, 2015
So after 2 weeks ish  of playing I finally got enought T$ to get yellow level  into my first rookies and was excited.

Apparently it was a charity birthday game for RobiLee . I honestly didn't see anything 'cuz at the enroll page there's no description (or at least none that I'm aware of). Can someone explain to me is there a way as to how I can choose which game/room to join when I enroll?

So I just played along and the only rule I'm aware of is that not to nom/vote out the birthday boy. Ok I can play along with that since it's his birthday game and all and I got in accidentally

Sometimes I see people post a "Spam Line" in their post and I thought it meant you are not supposed to post spams like promotion or voting links for your other games/shops and stuff.

But apparently it meant you're not supposed to talk at all after the "Spam Line" was used

And then Swaggy just started yelling and saying profanities to me like shut the fuck up and called me a bitch and accused me of cheating.

I apologized saying I didn't know the rules (nor anyone actually explained)  I asked if there's any other rules I should be made aware of but all I get is getting accused of cheating and more profanities and getting threatened to be voted out.

Up till now i still don't understand how talking is cheating and I asked nicely as I apologized but no one explained and all they do is yell at me and called me a cheat.

I really wish RobiLee a happy birthday and I know i'm a noob but I'm not a cheat and I don't think I should be called a bitch by Swaggy.

There's never a rule post about the talking and how spamline works and the only rule I know is to not vote /nom the birthday boy. I'm kinda crying over this (I know is kinda over dramatic) but I just feel like i'm being called a bitch and accused of cheating without even know what's happening by Swaggy and his friends....

I just honestly don't understand how talking is cheating???? DaBaeBae koolcoop Carriexoxo24xo Can someone explain to me???
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First Frookie Game. Got 5Th Nov 12, 2015
It's so crazy! Everything was happening so fast! I was horrible at the comps and never won any of them. I got 5th by playing a good (at least I thought it was) social game.

I noticed some people were already against each other and tried to work out who were working together and secretly talking to people from both sides to gather more info. Also secretly voting off members from each side one at a time to balance the odds out.

Eventually was nominated but was saved with POV first and was said to be used as a pawn.

Then my connection had issues and the game which I could actually win DEAL when I needed the POV/HOH most i couldn't join and was voted 1 to 1 and algo got me out. I made it clear that I wasn't a threat since I never won anything but that wasn't enough.

Anyway, 5th place on my first Frookie game aint bad if you ask me.
Points: 37 1 comments