This is actually really hard for me to do... I have been living a lie on this website. Now this is going to come to a shock to some people & some people will probably think I'm lying. I'm not.
I have told people on this website that I am gay from the moment that I started it. I've had "crushes" on guys, I've talked about my "exes" with some people, I've done some outrageous thing that make me seem gay. This was on purpose.
I'm making this blog to "come out" in a way. This just feels really weird. For years, I have been pretending to be gay online. I know, it's weird. I have made up many stories & memorized them so that I wouldn't forget. I am not gay, I am in fact straight.
I felt like the only way to get attention on this site was to be gay. I felt like I couldn't be friends with anyone on here because they shunned straight people, or because many people on here are gay.
I have sent nudes to guys from Tengaged to even further cover up my real identity. I have faked liking guys on here to make sure no one suspected a thing. I have gotten fake pictures of guys & claimed that they were my ex or my boyfriend to ensure that my secret stayed a secret.
I just wanted people to actually like me for me & not pre-judge me for my sexuality, although I am technically a "majority" in the real world, on here, the majority is gay. I wanted people to give me a chance without thinking "oh, he's just another hetero" or "why are we friends with a straight boy?"
I know this sounds stupid, but after a while, it wasn't an option for me to turn back & change it. Once I started, it was impossible for me to stop. If I revealed that I was actually straight, everyone would call me a "catfish" or a "liar" and I would lose friends, but I can't be afraid of that anymore. I just keep pretending. I can't pretend to be someone that I'm not. I can't keep fake-flirting with guys & making up stories & ranting about boys.
I'm sorry to everyone that I've lied to & if this in anyway affects our friendship, I completely understand. Anyone that wants to talk to me about this is welcome to & anyone that wants to bitch me out is welcome to.
