Hi everyone! I am still so ecstatic that I made finals! It feels like a dream. Thank you for all the support this far
I want to break down my gameplay:
⭐️ At the beginning of this game, I was added to a 7 person alliance chat
⭐️ As amazing as it was to be part of a majority alliance, I started to question “where do I stand in such a large group?”
⭐️ I needed to break those numbers down because, I didn’t want to end up playing for 4th-7th. I came here to go to the very end
⭐️ The thing about majority chats, when people feel they have majority, they don’t bother reaching out to the rest of the cast and I think some people got too comfortable
⭐️ I saw that as an opportunity to make sure to talk to everyone and get to know them on a more personal level and not just solely for game purposes.
⭐️ The conversations I’ve had, I hold deeply to me and I will cherish these new friendships
⭐️ For the whole first half of the game until final 8, I was not apart of any sets because I made sure that attention went to players people were suspicious of (sorry Pekka ily)
⭐️ I have so much more to say for the rest of my game from the time I was nominated for 7th until the end of this game that I will post in a quick vlog later tonight
⭐️ But for now, please vote for me to win. I really want this to be my time, this has been an almost 2 year journey
I’m really glad it was a lot closer than I thought it was going to be. It means a lot to have continuous support on here and I serious am thankful
However I think I’ve kind of accepted that I probably won’t win a stars and that’s okay :)
I really just wanted to play to get stuff off my mind from my personal life that has been bothering me and just overall tanking my mental health
In a way, yes this game occupied my mind but also it was disappointing to find out some unfortunate things while playing especially when my anxiety relates to constantly feeling like whether people like me or not
I know it sounds dumb, but I’m just so mentally drained lately, partly relating to my actual life and being on here doesn’t feel like an escape like it used to
So for now, I think I’m just going to sign off. I hope I can find other things to fall in love with and also focus more on self love
It’s hard for me to be more vulnerable at times because my social anxiety is ROUGH but I seriously do love all the people that have shown they care about me on here and hope we can still talk on discord ❤️❤️❤️
