(thanks aksp for the cute homemade sign =] ily bud)
What a crazy ride.
I planned to join this game about 2 months in advance (I normally plan ahead because I need to not work a lot that week so I can be around a lot, because a majority of the time I get nominated is because I am at work and not able to keep things under control).
Immediately after I joined I felt defeated and wanted to give up, after seeing what I perceived to be a really popular cast, and a few minutes into enrollment I logged off. I got some text messages from some people who know who they are, telling me that you never know what could happen in this game and I should really go on and at least try, and boy were the right.
My initial goal started out as just finals, because with the mixture of
strategy and popularity in this game, I really felt fucked LOL. Slowly but
surely those who gunned for me got out, and the big names fell early, and I
was literally shocked LOL
I sit here in finals having been nominated only two times along with my fellow houseguests, having not created any flavor, having had the incredibly huge target with having a best friend in the game, but still managing to have the longest consecutive amount of time spent off the block.(10 rounds for me, 7 for chem, 6 for ryguy)
I played this game the only way I knew how, took chances, made bold moves but there were definitely times when it wasnt easy, when the whole house was against me, and those were the times where I really showed up and worked hard to pull off what I needed to do. (there was one specific move that caused vike to blog about me being a great stars player because I pulled off the unthinkable to prevent him and robby going up)
I really want this tengaged, I don't think my desire or my effort have ever really been questioned, and I really hope that this time I can pull off a win. I've been close to it before having made two finals in the past, but I just want to have that feeling like everything you did this week was for one reason and one reason alone, to win.
Thanks for all your support to everyone out there, all your kind messages, your support blogs, your mails that made me smile. < 3
(thanks aksp for the cute homemade sign =] ily bud)
