Before I start I want to give a shout-out to ShayyBayy <3, and Amartin :D
Or Anyone else who Posted their story.
Before I tell my reasons here is my background. I'm a 13 year old guy.. living in a small town with BIG dreams. (Swimming) I've never been told from a doctor I'm "Depressed" But I think I am.
My life is hell. Anything I do.. isn't good enough. The things I work hard At... I DON'T ACHIEVE. I used Tengaged for my escape <33.
Don't believe my life is hell? Here are the reasons..
My Dad- Me and My dad have had our up's and down's but my dad has some bad anger problems. (I do too) I've never really been abused. <- Or So i tell myself that. My dad comes up with the WORST punishments ever. After me and my dad's fight my dad tried to make it worse. I slept on the floor with only a pillow.. No Cover. To make it worst.. My dad turned on the fan. He told me if I turn it off. He will turn off the heat too. And Ill have another night on the ground. Thinks that not that bad. Well, I think this is the lowest of the lowest. When I was 8.. I would normaly yell for attention. Well My dad got tired of me yelling. He didn't ask me to stop. No,he went on a all-out outrage. He picked up the closest pillow and smothered me into it. He told me he wouldn't let me go until I stopped. I was thinking he was going to kill me. Right then. I punched him until he let go.. I thought I took my last breath. :/
My Adoption- A while ago, I found out I was adopted. From then on, I when into depression. For 13 years, I've been saying "Mom" and "Dad" and there really just like strangers to me.For the longest time.. I've always thought.. "I'm not good enough" That's why they didn't want me. When kids at school say "Your Mom"(As a joke) I break down on the inside. I don't talk to anyone. It just makes it 10x worst.
Bullied- I'm bullied in every-way possible. I'm bullied EVERYDAY. I've been called so many names.. Etc. That's not the end of it. Far from it. I'm bullied in physical ways too. In the hallways people push, trip, punch, and throw gum/books/pencils..etc at me. Then they just laugh. Everyone tells me to ignore it. You cant ignore it. It happens EVERYDAY. If I tell a teacher the student will get suspended.. but they don't care. They come back and do it again. When they get expelled one of there friends fills in the spot. Its NOT fun.
(P.S. I don't need to be bullied on here ether)
Sky(My best friend)- Your probably thinking this have nothing to do with it. But it does. Sky is the reason I haven't self-hurt myself. Everything isn't so good anymore. Sky Mom became Ill in 09' and now cant take Sky to school. So Normally Sky's brother does. In Jan 10' Sky's Brother became a drug dealer. He would come home 3 or 4am intoxicated or High. Sky refused to get into the car with her brother driving. Sky ended up missing 39 days of school. She had a court 3/17/11 and was charged for truancy(Miss to many days of school) She was took to DJJ(Dentition of Juvenile Justice)
A.k.a- Jail for minors. And Is now serving 90 days. Yes, Its not a big deal to you. But it is to me.
This Why my life is HELL. I strive to to my best in anything I do.. But it never works out. This is why i used tengaged as m second life. <3.
I want to thanks these people for everything they done for me on this website.
-Gurlbai.
-JonoB :D
-sarahnva
-ZEEnon
-chameleoneyes
-Zurks
-ohhayy
-rippyroo
-Whodi
-Spacesheep.
-Etienne
-Sihz :D
Thanks for reading <3.
-Niingage
you have such a strength :) .. why didnt you tell me that before?? .. im 18 and i know what is to be bullied .. i was bullied at school a few months ago .. and the only thing i gotta say is BE STRONG AND CONFIDENT!.. when those people were bullying me and laughing .. i was laughing with them to show them that im stronger than them .. one of them even tried to punch me and i didnt let him ..believe me that works .. sorry for your dad problems :( i have ones too but not that hard .. I consider you as a friend even you were a thousands miles of distance ... thanks for trusting me all the time :) and being my friend ..
Before I start I want to give a shout-out to ShayyBayy <3, and Amartin :D
gl!