I felt so awful afterwards, I thought there must've been something wrong with me for having sex without having sex, it was weird...like I knew what it was, but at the same time I didn't, does that make sense?
I was scared, I remember thinking I was going to get pregnant and started crying :( I kept it a secret from my parents then they told me and I realized it was normal and that I wasn't pregnant, and that was a huge relief
