I got into the Mazda as the sun was setting and as I was driving home from Miami I got really overwhelmed and began crying.
My reasons for crying were ---
1) I'm not in school
2) I've been ignoring my family
3) I've been ignoring my friends
4) Holy shit I'm 22
5) Holy shit I'm 22
6) I want some of Momma's love but I have too much pride to ask for it
7) My man is going to Texas until December
Then I started crying over some girl that I stopped being friends with like five months ago...and then I got stressed about bills and like how my move-in date for the new apartment got moved back to August 14th.
So I cried about all these "adult" things, I guess aside from #7.
Anyway so I cried like a crazy person, cried the entire 45 minute ride home from Miami and then I was like... what the fuck just happened.
I felt fine and wasn't really sure why I had just cried like a psycho over my life.
I still feel pretty bizarre and "off" for doing all that random crying. Maybe everyone on this site that's called me a psycho bitch before has been right, either that or I just bottled too much shit up lol.
playboyy ahem I just turned 20 two months ago which is a MUCH more traumatic age to turn thank you very much. I haven't even turned 22 yet and I already know that.
