No I don't mean of a stars win or Janelle from Big Brother robbed. I mean like, someone took what you deserved and there's no way to get it back? Maybe I'm just crazy but I've been in love with the same boy since December 11th and I've been lost ever since he left. He deserted me like I was a piece of meat... I feel like a broken record playing the same song that nobody wants to listen to. Within the past two months I've lost myself and I can't find me :(
The boy I am in love with, has a boyfriend. I didn't know until it was too late. I fell in for him so quickly, he was perfect to me, still is. The way he talked to me just a single text from him could make me shine in a second. I usually get over things quickly but I honestly think he was put in my life for me to fight for him.
I never want to break up a happy home but I'm so sick and fucking tired of lying to myself. I'm tired of telling myself "you can do better" EVEN IF I CAN DO BETTER, I want him. I'm tired of telling myself "you don't deserve this." Maybe I don't but he means the world to me and I'm sorry that I'm making a complete fool of myself over an Internet boy :| #rantover