Ok so I was inspired by gaiaphage & maxiphone27 's blogs so I thought I would share my story .
Growing up as a kid I was verbally , emotionally & physically abused by my father . My parents divorced when I was 8 years old am that is when I had to grow up as my father had left the house & my mum would spend full days in bed while she was comming down from taking speed .
In 2003 my cousin who I was close with past away.
In 2004 my auntie who pretty much raised me was told she had breast cancer .
At the age of 12 I tried to kill my self one time it was by stabbing my self hoping to bleed out .
With every thing that had been going on I found my self no longer being the happy boy that I used to be as I was becoming extremely sad and not letting my emotions out .
In 2005 I started year 7 I came from primary school where I plenty of friends to a high school where I had none I was constantly bullied for being over weight and enjoying activities that were not seen as popular like reading . When people found out that I am bi things got worse the bullying became so bad that I was wagging school & when I was at school I was either getting beaten up or beating other people up .
In 2006 I finally found a group of girls I be friends with however they introduced me to a world I would not have wanted to be apart of . I was still being bullied for being friends with these girls . I started hanging out with the girls after school all we would do is smoke weed & drink we were only 14 at the time . The girls used to cut them selfs .
One night at home after having a fight with my mum I thought about being bullied and every that had happen in my family and between my father and my self that I cut my wrists .
After some councling things improved .
In 2012 I had a group of people that were ment to be my friends but all they did was take the piss out of me and make me feel like shit . At the end of the year after feeling like shit for a year and Half and the stress of end of year exams I thought about killing my self so I saw the doctor and was put on 50mg of anti depressants .
Early 2013 I made the choice to no longer be friends with the people that made me feel like shit this lead to two fights and me being assaulted in the middle of town . I went down the path of drinking and taking drugs every weekend .
I started study in childcare and a lot of people made me feel like shit in class which made things so much worse I would find myself crying at things that had nothing to do with me and I was caught in the middle of hanging myself I was sent to the doctor am my anti depressants were upped to 100mg .
After getting a job and my life back on track I became happy again and was taken of my medication things do get better if you struggle with depression please feel free to inbox me .
Oh RossLee. :( (hug)
You know I think you're amazing and hilarious, but I had no idea all this stuff happened to you. I'm so happy that you're happy now. :')
Growing up, social media and films make people think that you need a load of friends. You don't. All you need is one person who just loves you for you and will stand by you in your highest and lowest moments. I've had terrible friends and after finally getting past them, I now have amazing friends.
I'm also sorry about your losses. :(
Childcare is a great career and there need to be more men in there. My mum is a manager of a nursery, my sister is a teacher and I tutor kids. :3
Kids are awesome. :D
