I haven't been on for almost an entire 6 months, but I have been looking at the site every once in a while (aka during late nights when I've refreshed Facebook, Twitter and Reddit 50 times over the past hour). I'm still not coming back, but I figured I'd do a quick blog to let y'all know some stuff that's happening!.. not that anyone cares. Or maybe one person does, if I'm lucky.
Alright, so what's happened over the past 180-ish days? #Eurovision was fun. Good winner. Not my favorite, but still good. I personally preferred Australia to take home the crown, voted 16 times for them during the final. Our song (Sweden) was good too!
I bleached my hair and dyed it purple about 3 months ago! The purple wore off really quickly though, and I ended up with pink hair about 2 weeks later. My hair really looked like cotton candy after I showered, which was fun (see attached pic).
I've been focusing alot more on my YouTube channels, and my song contest called Zendari. It's been... interesting. Actually, speaking of Zendari, I'm not apart of the community anymore. I left it completely. Things took a toll for the worse about a month ago, which actually got me into a maaaaajor depressive phase. Things just got to my head, and there was so much negativity, so I just decided to leave it all behind. I feel like I've lost 40+ friends, but at least I'm feeling much better now. Who needs friends though, am I right? Heh.. *cries*
Another thing that contributed to said depressive phase is that one of my close friends actually committed suicide a few months ago. This is the second time I'm forced to go through a loss of a friend in my entire life, and I still don't know how to cope. I'm feeling much better now though. May his soul rest in peace. I miss you Willie.
Luckily, things turned around about 2-3 weeks ago. I found a brand new community with friends who care about eachother. People who listen and try to help everyone. They've really helped me through everything that's been going on over the past few months. It made me realize that I've done the right thing, with leaving so many things behind. I couldn't be more thankful.
Also, I've lost weight! For probably the first time in my life! I've lost about 20 pounds over the past few months, which is a pretty big deal to me! I really feel like I'm being healthier and making better lifestyle decisions. I'm still pretty big, but you gotta start somewhere right? Rome wasn't built in a day :P
Basically, 2019 started off kinda shitty, but things have really started to turn around for the better. There was a time when I didn't see a light at the end of the tunnel, but at the time I didn't realize that if I stopped walking, I'd never be able to see it. Just because you can't see something doesn't mean that it's not there.
Anyway, that's all from me! I highly doubt the situation of the site has changed, but please inform me of some stuff that's been happening on the site during these past months! I've seen some stuff, but I've probably missed most of it.
I don't know when I'll be back on the next time - could be tomorrow, could be in 3 years, who knows? :P Take care everyone!