HAVE NIGHTMARES EACH WEEK BOUT THAT FRIDAY IN MAY
ONE PHONE CALL FROM YOU AND MY ENTIRE WORLD WAS CHANGED
TRUST THAT YOU BETRAYED, CONFUSION THAST STILL LINGERS
TOOK EVERYTHING I LOVED, AND CRUSHED IT IN BW UR FINGERS
AND I DOUBT YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THE DAMAGE THAT U DID
BUT I HOLD ON TO EVERY DETAIL LIKE MY LIFE DEPENDS ON IT
MY UNDYING LOV,E NOW , I HOLD IT LIKE A GRUDGE
AND I HEAR YOUR VOICE EVERYTIME I THINK IM NOT ENOUGH
AND I TRY TO BE TOUGH, BUT I WANNA SCREAM
HOW COULD ANYBODY DO THE THINGS YOU DID SO EASILY?
AND I SAY I DON'T CARE, I SAY THAT IM FINE
BUT YOU KNOW I CANT LET IT GO
I'VE TRIED, I'VE TRIED, I'VE TRIED FOR SO LONG
IT TAKES STRENGTH TO FORGIVE, BUT I DON'T FEEL STRONG ....
Well, sometimes I feel like I don't wanna be where I am
Gettin' drunk at a club with my fair-weather friends
Push away all the people who know me the best
But it's me who's been makin' the bed
I'm so tired of bein' the girl that I am
Every good thing has turned into somethin' I dread
And I'm playin' the victim so well in my head
But it's me who's been makin' the bed
