Honestly, this is only for viewers discretion if you want to see me ramble about my time on Tengaged, my frustrations with the current system, and why I feel after this stars game I probably will become inactive again. It is something I worked out through my drive home from spring break today, and maybe someone out there who will watch it (girl maybe at 2x speed) will appreciate and relate too. I have been on this website for over 10 years now, and I feel like I have seen both the ups and downs of the Tengaged public.
A TLDR is I started as a child here and learned bad habits from seeing other negative interactions which caused me to replicate the behavior. Then being open about my diagnosis of cancer, though had people questioning the legitimacy, it garnered support. That sorta ended when I was seen close to people with severe allegations (those who I do not contact with anymore), though my age sorta prevented me from seeing the bigger picture. I now sit having multiple versions of myself documented on this website, and yet, it feels like the past is the past and there isn't much I can do from that.
If you have any questions, my messages are open or my discord (ReaperRaka) is available. I know I said I was going to post the link for the stars pollbox here, but after speaking for 10 minutes in a such serious tone about my perspective on the website, I feel like it would make this conversation less serious (?). I am not expecting much, I just sit here and speak about my outlook on Tengaged and why I feel like this space isn't for me anymore.