marginally uncertain about the outcome...
i messaged colts saying "mearl has been targeting you; i'm voting for him"
literally RIGHT WHEN colts responded -- like, 18 seconds later, looking at timestamps -- joeker skyped me saying "did colts respond yet"
like RIGHT afterwards within 20 seconds... so they're obviously been talking
my alliance's skype chat has gone quiet which is surprising with how much they all apparently wanted to vote out mearl
colts's message to me was saying he'll vote any way i tell him to, which... seems like a blatant lie since it's so extreme
mearl acted to me like he's totally apathetic about who he votes for which shows he's being dishonest with me -- which i /knew/ he was, but before it was a "mearl is trying to use me" dishonesty.. here, it seems like a "mearl doesn't care how i vote" dishonesty, i.e. mearl is voting for me
there are lots of fishy things in people's interactions with me that they don't think i'm picking up on, but i am
so if i do go home, i won't be blindsided at all
but like, everyone has TOLD me they're voting mearl and i've acted like i'm cool with all of them, so.. if they /are/ voting for me, there's not really anything i can do to stop it?? other than accuse them of planning to vote for me and then if i AM wrong, i look paranoid and stupid, and like.. how would i even go about that? trying to convince people to vote for mearl when they've already acted like they're doing so? that'd just be awkward. like
"hey russ im voting for mearl"
"okay but here's why you should vote for MEARL instead"
"...what"
so i mean right now, just based on the little signals i'm picking up, i think they're probably voting for me and i'm probably going home, so if i do, it's not a blindside at all
but if they are voting for mearl and i was just paranoid, then good