Damn ok I really let my idol paranoia get to me. And I’m bout to do it again. Lemme start with last tribal doe. Ok so we were convinced that Kyle prolly has an idol, so he’d play it on Gabe, his only ally left in the game, since Kyle won individual immunity. Vincent decided he wanted another big idol play ig so he was like “let’s just put all our votes on Gabe and I’ll hopefully use my idol correctly and we can send Nathan home on the revote.” But britt was not boutta trust him to play his idol right randomly. And we were pretty sure vincent was just gonna play the idol on himself anyways. So she told me “ok so don’t tell vincent but you and me should put our votes on Nathan to cause a 2-2-2 tie.” But that wouldn’t work either. If Kyle played an idol on Gabe, then it’d be a tie between Nathan and whoever Kyle and Gabe voted, prolly me. After that, one of two things would happen Vincent and Britt would vote Nathan again and Kyle and Gabe would vote me again, sending britt home as the only one eligible. Or Britt would realize if the votes tied again she’d be going home, so she’d vote me on the revote and I’d go home. So, I took a pass on that plan. And instead, I said, “hey, instead of risking one of me or britt going home, let’s just all vote Nathan.” That way, Kyle would still prolly play his idol on Gabe cuz he’d assume we were voting gabe, Nathan would vote Gabe, and Kyle and Gabe would vote prolly me. Also, it’d get rid of Nathan, who ik britt was thinking of maybe bringing to FTC as a goat. That’s one less available FTC seat for me. So Nathan went home in a 3-2-1 vote, but Kyle did not play an idol. Since the vote, Kyle has continued to talk about the idol, and it’s clear he’s bluffing. But, and this is where I risk sounding paranoid, I feel like he’s bluffing so terribly that it’s reverse psychology. The bluff is so obviously fake that we’d definitely know he doesn’t have an idol. So maybe he’s intentionally bluffing terribly to make us confident he doesn’t have an idol when he really does? I mean, he claimed he found the merge idol, which Vincent has. Ok... but ig there could be 2 idols. But then the boi tells me he guessed Nate Gonzalez to find the idol. Wtf? Even if I hadn’t already guessed Nate Gonzalez almost a week ago, which I did, I could’ve just guessed Nate today. If the idol was real, I’d be told that the idol was there but it was already found. But the idol was not under Nate Gonzalez. Now Kyle is saying he is playing the idol on himself tonight, so I have another plan. I’m gonna try to pretend I believe in his bluff idol. That way, if he has an actual idol that’s not bluffed, he’ll feel he’s safe, cuz I wouldn’t have my alliance vote for someone if I thought all those votes would be negated. If he has an actual idol tonight, I’m thinking he’ll play it on Gabe. So we’re voting Kyle. Now let me rant about what my worries are for next vote. If Gabe wins immunity, he’ll prolly want me gone, which would stink. But if me or britt wins immunity, Britt has said she wants Vincent gone cuz she thinks he’s our biggest threat. He’s prolly threatening to her, but i feel that my control of the alliance would be easiest to argue for if I have vincent and Britt next to me at the end. My whole game has been focused on eliminating any options for my alliance-mates. And now britt has found one that will be hard for me to get rid of if britt or I win immunity. If britt or I win immunity, then Britt will vote Vincent with Gabe, so even if I vote Gabe with Vincent, it’ll be decided by fire making. Thankfully, if Kyle goes tonight, Vincent and I will be the only people left in the game who have won immunity. Ideally, it’ll come down to me and Vincent, so I can throw the challenge. If Vincent has immunity, then Britt will have to vote Gabe cuz she’s made it pretty clear she’s not finna vote me, and I actually believe her. Today she told me she’s glad she’s had someone so honest and loyal to play with,