Is it just me? Maybe it is. I joined Tengaged with this optimistic nd bright want to make new friends. For a while I did and I know I have, but they're gone now. I have made friendships and lost some, or I just thought I really mde some.
Maybe I was just a fool for thinking friendships could be real here. You know, I wished I can have my own JT to my Stephen. But everyone chose the game over me. They chose the group games over the relationships we built for months. It makes me sad because I would save them in a heartbeat even if that costs my game.
It's not even that I'm bitter for not winning bc in complete honesty, I don't care. I'm not even mad at them for betraying me. I'm ashamed of myself for believe in something that's not real. I'm ashamed of myself for believing I can actually have friends here. I respect it if that's their gameplay. What just hurts for me is how people who I thought are my friends chose the game that's not even real, this, tengaged is just fantasy. But they chose the game over me, that's real and in flesh. Makes me feel like I'm just nothing. I'm not mad at anyone. I'm mad at myself for expecting people would do the same for me.
