So my parents are not only making me buy him a new one once I have the money but they also stole my phone, laptop, DS, and Xbox controller (I have a 360 without Kinect in my room). Don't know when they are giving it back because my mom took them while I was sleeping and brought them to her work so I can't access any of them and she is still at work. The only thing she didn't take was my iPod (how I am posting this) but I know she will be taking it as well the second she gets home.
So yeah. Don't know when I will be back, but it will probably be whenever they give my stuff back to me. Sorry to all the people who applied for my survivor. I will try and host that season when I get back but for now it will be post-poned.
I won't have access to Skype or anything so there won't be a way to reach me unfortunately.
I want to tell a story though (a secret of mine) before I end this. Last summer, I was going to kill myself. I told my mom accidentally during an argument and she put me in therapy. I spent my summer going to weekly therapy sessions. I went to theme alone though. My mom dropped me off to every appointment and then left until I needed to be picked up. My dad never took me or picked me up from a single session. Neither have once asked me (about a full year after I let it slip that I was considering suicide) about how I'm feeling or how I'm doing in regards to my suicidal thoughts. Not a single word about the subject other than my mom saying "Bullshit" when I told her about my thoughts. It took me walking to the kitchen, picking up the biggest knife in our house, and holding it to my throat for her to take my comment seriously. And this is just one of the things my parents have done to me in the past 5-7 years to show me they care.
Both my parents have told me they don't support what I want to study in college (video game/computer stuff. Not 100% sure exactly what, but that's the general path). Both have told me if I needed a place to stay when I am in my late 20s+ that they might not left me stay with them. Both have made negative comments about my weight (I am 6'3" and weigh 275 pounds, most of which is fat not muscle). Both have even made comments about my nose (my nostrils are larger that most people's).
I want to thank everyone on this site who has been any sort of friend or acquaintance to me these past 2 years. You are the people I consider my family these days. You are the people I look up to and aspire to be like someday. You are the people who have shown me that you truly care about me, and that is something I truly cannot thank you enough for.
For those of you who are parents or will be one soon, please don't be as "caring and loving" as my parents are. Be the exact opposite of them.
So for now, this is goodbye. I will be back soon hopefully, but I don't know. It all depends on my parents.
Wow. You didn't do anything wrong. Idk if you ever plan on being a parent yourself one day but I firmly believe that if you end up being one one day that you can set things right by being the parent that cares and believes in their child. Do what yours aren't doing for you right now. Good luck bro
Man fuck them. Im sorry you had to go through this man :( i know almost exactly what you are going through with the wholw suicidal thoughts thing:( hope things turn up
Wow :( I'm so sorry dude, that really sucks. Good for you to keep on going even when it seems like everything is coming down on you. Keep your spirits up :)
Aw bless you < 3 Please never forget that things get better, you've found people who are supportive and contribute to your life positively online and you'll be able to do the same irl once you can break free from your family. I hope that you're back soon :)
Wow that's tough buddy... I know life can shit on you sometimes but just remember that you'll always be in our thoughts even if you're not able to get online.
This is absolutely terrible
I hope if I'm ever a dad I'm a better parent than that
Hopefully you get your stuff back! Its pretty unfair what happened to you
and I can feel you on the whole suicide thing
anyways I guess at least for now goodbye NJesus and hope things get better for you http://www.tengaged.com/blog/AlmightyOZ/5689193/prayer-njesus
NJKoda1998
I am so sorry to hear about this. I feel truly awful for you, and I can't imagine how you feel. I hope it gets better and know that people love you on this site Nick, they really do.
You could report your parents for stealing your stuff if you did indeed purchase any of the stuff they took from you.
But besides that, I'm really sorry this has happened to you.
You aren't responsible and when you do leave, your parents will realise how wrong they are about you.
Also, study whatever you will enjoy. If you don't enjoy it, why would you want to do well in it, right? It's not about your parents, you pick. I didn't get my parents' approval with my University or College course choices because it's not about them. XD
This is horrible parenting :( and also why i'm glad to be the "Beloved Only Child" ... i wish there was a way i could help I've always respected you as a person even tho we've never talked if you did pay for the stuff you own you could take legal matters if you want to go that far i'll miss reading your blog Nick good luck and take care < 3
aww nick this is so horrible to read! I'm sorry for everything you've been through but like Lewis said, things do get better and these types of things only make you a stronger person! You're a lovely funny guy and i hope youre back soon! I know we dont talk as often as we used to when we were in the same frat, but i am always here if you need someone to turn to! *hugs* xx
why do they disprove of you wanting to study video game/computer stuff? doing what you enjoy should always be priority but not only that its a big money and expanding industry that has tons of options and jobs
Just saying... They might not show it all the time, or let you see it, but they probably do love/care for you if you have a roof over your head, a meal everyday, and can get you through school. And also, EVERY PERSON should be out of their parents house by their 20's. I would also like to say that if you don't like their comments about your weight, then lose it because if you haven't figured it out already, heavier people are easy targets for bullying (I don't not jump on this bandwagon, just being a realist) I mean just to wrap up my rant/advice.. Don't take stuff to serious because from what it sounds like, you're just a kid crying for attention. Maybe little brother gets all of it, IDK, but all I can really say is Killing yourself just makes you a pussy in this situation, because there are ways to turn rough situations around, but YOU have to be willing to step up to the plate and fix them... Goodluck, and you are in my prayers, but take some responsibility.
