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sophiesanf

sophiesanf's blog

  1. Accepting Reality.
  2. My Red Hair!!
  3. I Lost It
  4. 4 weeks gone
  5. Thankyou so much!!
  6. parrtyy ;)
  7. Damn!!
  8. Sympathy please...
  9. Did someone say...
  10. ...
  11. Big shocker huh?
  12. Thankyouuu
  13. The Awkward Moment When....
  14. Fifty Shades Obsessed!!
  15. All about me
  16. 5 months later
  17. chatzy
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  19. the ginourmous lightning bug x
  20. funny!
  21. i luv u!!
  22. todays was the day!
  23. alexander!
  24. baby names!
  25. baby brother!
  26. avatar!
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  32. taylor swift xx
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Accepting Reality. May 17, 2015
imageSo on the 12th of april my whole world fell apart. My boyfriend of 2 and a half years broke up with me for reasons i don't deem acceptable. He left the the Uk to live over in the UAE with the intention of me going over not long after. He made everything seem so simple and when he realised it wasn't going to be as easy and simple as he had planned..he just gave up. He started being distant with me....avoided skyping me, became neutral in texts..brushed asides my terms of affection with an 'anyway'. When i did ask him about it he said he loved me and that everything was fine..but i could tell it wasn't. I knew deep down in my heart it was anything but. This wasn't the person i'd fought my battles with. I was so sick with worry i couldn't eat, i started developing tension headaches from my emotional stress. So he eventually told me that he was finding long distance too hard and that we should break up...  Of course my heart shattered into pieces. The person i loved the most in the whole world had treated me awfully and now was breaking my heart beyond repair.
    Personally, i don't feel long distance is a good enough reason to throw away 2 and half years of pure love. If you had read my previous blogs you'd know that we overcame a miscarriage earlier this year..and in those awful moments i had never felt a stronger bond between us..i felt like we could get through anything together!! 2 weeks later he's jetted off to the UAE. Clearly i was wrong.
   Of course now he messages me everyday saying he wants to remain in my life and that he would die if he couldn't..that he still loves me. He gets mardy if i don't message him. And if that's the case what was the point of breaking up..of which he answered..it's easier. EASIER FOR HIM.
   I know i deserve so much better..but i love him so much..he was my soul mate..my best friend and from the moment we met to the moment he left it was so magical and pure..i just can't seem to let go :( Only time can heal the damage he has done..and if he really loved me he would be here with me.
    So i'm going to accept the fact that i have to move on and hopefully restore the faith i had in true love.
     Thankyou for reading.
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My Red Hair!! Feb 11, 2015
Thankyou to my life long friend temponeptune for my red hair!! so touched!! My second gift on here..and i've  been playing for 5 years! it's laughable haha!! truly grateful!! Love ya!! :)
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I Lost It Jan 12, 2015
Well 3 weeks ago I revealed that I was 4 weeks pregnant. A few days before i was due to leave back to the uk, I lost it. The people who read my previous blog would know i didn't plan on keeping it. So i guess it just wasn't meant to be. I have to look at this as a positive as i didn't have a choice in this happening to me, it was out of my hands. It is also common for 1st pregnancies to end in miscarriage so now i have to pick myself back up and take it easy. I want to thank everyone who supported me in my last blog, it meant a whole lot.
Thanks for reading!
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4 weeks gone Dec 22, 2014
So earlier this week i found out i was pregnant..right before i was due to fly to Dubai for a 3 week holiday over the Christmas holidays. Me and my partner decided that it would be best if we didn't keep it..purely because we want to live our lives and achieve our goals and bring a baby into the world where we have everything we could possibly give it. I love my partner so much and the thought of getting rid of something that is half him and me is just terrible, because it would of been the most beautiful thing!!
   Unfortunately, the doctor said we couldn't do anything until we came back off our holiday :( So for 3 weeks i have to remain pregnant and endure the sickness, the pain and the guilt. I'm writing about this because i don't want to forget, everybody has advised me to try not to think about it but how can i not? A baby is growing inside of me and i'm letting it and it breaks my heart.
    However, i know that deep down this is the right decision. You have to be cruel to be kind. At the age of 20 I'm still so young and still a lot of things to do with my life! It's a saddening situation but I know i will look back and i know it was the best decision.
   Thanks for reading.
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Thankyou so much!! Jun 3, 2013
I'd just like to say thankyou to cisco8711 for gifting me my first ever gift! I will of been playing for 5 years in november and i'm just so excited to recieve my first gift and it's thanks to
Rawrlikeadino for making it happen!! I'm so unbelievably grateful! Thankyou
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parrtyy ;) Oct 6, 2012
This bitch just turned 18! Yay! Woop woop
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