Stef L. (lemons):
These past few days of the game has been really wild. And I haven’t sent a confessional in a couple rounds so this is going to be a sort of recap confessional that can hopefully explain my game and everything I’ve been doing. This whole game I feel like I have been a very active player and a very strategic player as well. I haven’t ever messed up so badly where I thought my game was completely over.
The merge boot, Jasoi, he was a complete wildcard who I never knew where he was going to be voting and who he was going to be loyal to. And I don’t think he was going to be loyal to me in the long term of this game. He had already thrown my name out in the pre-merge section and that scared me a lot. Because if he was ready to throw my name out back then, what was going to stop him from doing it again? On this vote, this was the first time I was going to be finally united with Brady, who thus far I’ve only been on opposite tribes yet. But we have this bond of this idol so I feel almost obligated to go with him and his side of the vote because of this bond. But it wasn’t anything for sure.
Now this vote was wild because on one side Chili, Nick, and Ethan wanted Will and I to go with them and send home Honey because Chili and Co. saw Honey as a wildcard (which she now kind of is for me). However, I didn’t want Honey to leave because I still saw her as a number for MY game and I saw her working with me. So I approached Will saying that Jasoi wants to target him or Brady next round to get out the returnees. Obviously Jasoi never said this and I faked screenshots and messaged from Jasoi to make sure Will was voting where I needed him to be.
So I flipped my vote and Will’s this vote to join Brady, Honey, Drew, and Garret in voting out Jasoi 6-4. Which to me is really a starting point on my climb to the top.
The next vote was Chili, Chili for me this whole game up until this point was a close friend and ally to me… But she was also a close friend and ally to almost everyone else in the game… Which I couldn’t really support.
Prior to this round Will, Brady, and I had talked about potentially taking out Chili, Ethan, or Nick here because of their placement on the other side of the tribe and them just being very close friends which in the game of Survivor is only bad news for me.
But, of course nothing goes as planned for me and apparently the round after I saved Honey from getting her torch snuffed and getting on the boat to Ponderosa she wants me out… So I’m literally sitting here like this
Trying to wrap my brain around why she would want to vote out someone who is with her and wants to move forward in the game with her. So I try and talk to people and see what's going on and apparently Honey and Drew wanted me out because I wasn’t really talking to them and I guess they didn’t know how I voted in the previous round.
I heard that Honey and Drew are coming after me from both sides, Brady and Garret tell me along with Chili. So people are trying to keep me in the game and protect me no matter what. But the problem here was Chili and her side wanted to take out Garret, who is an ally to me. And the other side wanted to take out Chili, who was another ally to me.
So here on this vote is where all of my cards are going to be revealed, I could either stay with my original alliance of Chili, Ethan, and Nick who I worked with a lot in the pre-merge section of the game or I could go and vote with Brady, Will, and Garret again along with Honey as an added vote.
This vote I had to betray someone and feelings were going to get hurt regardless so I decided to send home Chili and write her name down because for my game she was an ally to me but I don’t think she viewed me as her #1. She had Ethan and Nick who were much closer to her and would be loyal to her to their dying breath. So sadly I sent home Chili and she blew up on me after tribal accusing