Absolita P. (Absol):
Okay, so.
i'm voting lexie first of all i never outlined that here so that's the first order of business. like i said before i love her but that makes her so so so so so dangerous
this confessional will hopefully be long but there's not too much ground to cover specifically- i just wanna outline my endgame plans so my good friend and host OldNewz (and pieguy because i send him confessionals that he DOESN'T READ!!!!) knows what an ideal finale for absol would look like
so tonight, the goal is for me ben andy josh to split votes between will and lexie to force out the idol while also sending one of the good side home. if lexie goes that's kind of ideal for me because if i can manage it i would LOVE to try and cut a deal with will to not target each other at f5. i don't really trust him and it would be more of a self-preservation thing than anything but it kind of does make sense to like... take out a common enemy who is taking up a jury seat anyways. if i can sell him on that it puts me in a slightly better spot because i think taking out josh is probably a good idea? he has mentioned targeting me before and despite having tried to push the perception that i have no idea how the jury will view me (which is technically TRUE but i also am a cocky bitch and i think i will win regardless) i think that the perception is probably still that i am one of, if not the biggest jury threat left.
update: lol this plan to convince will to keep me at f5 even if i lose immunity might work? i have no idea and it could all be fake because realistically either of us can just take out josh at 4 anyways but it's worth a shot and if he actually goes through with it it could be the reason i end up winning that would be a slay. i almost feel indebted to this plan now because i do think will has a reason to trust me on it- we have been very upfront with each other so i don't see why he'd go behind my back just to give me 5th instead of 4th lol. maybe it's not a terrible idea but if i do win it's gonna be really hard not to just... slay him out for no reason.
also josh and i talked... it feels really weird because we kind of agreed that ben and andy are the ideal people to take to the end a little while ago, and now he's coming to me talking about how he feels closest with me and wants to go to the end with me and he's loyal to our alliance no matter what. i mean, it's a really nice idea and i want to believe it, but i think it would be a pretty weird way to use your last chance. i don't think anyone has the perception that they can beat me at this point- so it's kind of weird to hear someone say "yeah i'm loyal to you 100%" when everyone should be in self-preservation mode right now and being selfish as fuck, like i'm doing. i don't really trust josh even if i do like him and would want to go to the end with him
so, with that being said- the goal is to win as much as possible tomorrow night. i think if will wins at f5 its almost a no-brainer to send me home so i really wanna... either win or at least have him not win to kind of nudge people to the other good decision, which is to vote him out. i do wanna take out will asap (my plan to work with him is kind of a complete lie and im being mega desperate and grasping at like ANY straw possible but u work with what u get) because he is the biggest threat to me winning immunity left, and if i can win 3/4 immunities in a row that would be like... technically ideal but also kind of awkward from a case-making standpoint because it looks like i just won my way to the end, which would be true but i don't want people to THINK that.
but yeah. basically the plan is to win as much as possible and hopefully i have backup strategies in place to keep me solid from that point on?? i have made like deals with everyone at this point so hopefully i'm the one doing the double crossing and not the opposite.