Jimmy
I'm not a gambler. I have never gotten actual pleasure out of waging a bet, whether I win or lose. I do get like, an adrenaline rush I guess, but not anything I'd call real fun. I think maybe that's why I'm having difficulty with the whole idol hunt thing. I'm just so not into it. I don't know what it says about me that I can have fun and get pleasure out of checking thousands of profiles in a search for an idol, taking hours or even days, but taking like 30 seconds to go google survivor contestants that match up to a clue is somehow just not worth the effort. I think it says I'm stupid or crazy, but whatever, I'm me. Searching endlessly is a sort of a cathartic release of energy. I don't have to think about anything, just zone out. As far back as I can remember, I've been into tedium. As a child I would frequently watch the doppler radar channel to watch the circles go around. Quickly guessing a survivor player and getting a response leaves me with little else to do so... like... meh.. I've been trying to remember to do it. Usually right after someone mentions it. XD It's probably for the best anyway, idols rarely seem to benefit me in the end anyway.
The extra day break took me by surprise. I spent most of a whole day thinking I was definitely the vote because absolutely no one was talking to me or responding to me. I felt completely ostracized. embarrassing. LOL.
I'm still rolling with the hoops army alliance. I get the feeling that it's a bit loose for the others, but it's what I'm doing for sure at this point. I'll be honest, I'm having great difficulty divorcing myself from Wade. I often forget just how social Wade is and how charismatic. It is what it is. It doesn't help (or does it?) that he got immunity. I don't know what to make of the FourCore alliance. I think it's long dead and I'm the last one to realize it.
The choices for votes as I understand them right now are Azri or Bob. That works great for me since I'm wanting either Azri or Josh out myself to further weaken Wade's influence. I don't think they're his sheep any more than I am, but I do feel like we're all a bit under his damn control. It's really just too bad for me that Wade lost my trust, because I like him so much and he could be great to work with if he wasn't so tightlipped about what he's saying to other people. It drives me bananas. We could work so well in tandem, but I always have to be the one to not talk to anyone because I might accidentally screw up something he's trying to do? yeah, no, that doesn't work for me. Tell me up front and I'll work with that. Let me play my game dammit, LOL.
I like Grace, Ikah, and Kyle a lot too though. They are all three people that I have wronged in the past and felt badly about it. I just love an opportunity to show each of them that I can be the loyal compadre that I did in fact want to be in other games. This works so well for me, it's as good as a win if we get to the F4, and we're nearly half the cast, so, woohoo!
--maybe--
This is allstars. I've decided to throw in my lot with this crew, but they could blindside me. This game hasn't seemed to be much focused on people staying true to their alliances, but these three have been together for a while now and hopefully they don't mind me wedging myself in there. I've decided to not worry even a little bit about being blindsided. These are allstars, if they want to blindside me, they can do it well enough that I won't see it coming.