(Okay first off I didn't expect to get Sky, but I figure I may as well end it on a happy note-ish. Now here's the blog.)
Well there comes a time with every user on this site where enough is enough. Well this is my time. When I first came onto this site I was the stereotypical newbie who was trying to blend in with the crowds that were deemed more popular. Of course it didn’t work out too well for me, but eventually I did find myself with a group of friends and managed to succeed in this site some. Generally winning group games or castings, the usual bullshit.
I have taken two breaks if I recalled and then I a few hiatus moments when life got hectic, but I always tried my best to still engage with the people I was close with despite my life getting crazy. It’s just because I am not the kind of person to abandon a friendship like that. But as years have passed, I have come to the realization that people just wanted to be my friend when I was on the site and I was the available plusser for spam. Which spoiler alert I generally neg it. It did hurt for some time, but I moved forward because they’re usually just nothing more than pixelated avatars with not so cute designs at the time.
I came back to play the games on here recently, and it was mainly because I just wanted to have a good time. I didn’t know that the site had gone down to shit with no mods and the multis. So that should’ve been a HUGE red flag right there. But I said fuck it, I have seen the site at other shitty times. From Biodork’s rampage to pedophilia based drama. While I made some amazing friends that I hope to stay in touch with, there were those who showed their true colors. I am not gonna say names, but they know who they are. They’re not worth a trend, and to me nothing. My anger for this site has never been more severe than what it was over the years, and it sickens me that I let a couple a young douchebags let me get like that. Assholes became bigger assholes, friends became the assholes, and my best friends just became nothing to me. I get it I shouldn’t take this shit seriously, but it truly does suck to feel the way that I felt. It’s just for those on here who know me beyond the gaming knows that the friends that I make here mean a lot to me. I have a lot of shit to deal with in my life, and sometimes I just use this site to help me escape all that negativity in the real world. Seems sappy but it’s just the truth. For it to be just as severe on here, it’s truly saddening because none of this shit went down when there was someone actually handling it. The main gist of this that everyone that I was so close to just end up seeing no value in the friendship, and I am guilty of it too. It’s just from where I finally decided that I just can’t waste my time trying to make an effort.
My real life has been playing a huge factor in my final departure here. I am in school, and I am trying to work my way into a career that will help me down the road. I have a family that needs me more than ever. It’s just I feel guilty because here I am going crazy about whatever a dumbass might say in a Frookies when I could be dealing with more important things.
My finals thoughts is that I had an amazing four (almost five) years on this site, and despite all of the bullshit that some of the users put me through, I had a good time with the people that cared in the end. I want to say thank you to every single user I have met that has helped me get through a lot of shit in the years. Without you guys I probably would have left a very very VERY long time ago. It’s sad that it’s all coming to an end. I will be posting my contact information below after this, and if you still want to talk, then awesome I would love to hear from you guys. If not, I understand that. If you’re using this time to spam me, then fuck off.
It’s been an incredible journey, but it’s just time for me to say my goodbye here. I will be logging out and changing my password at around 12 AM EST just incase if anyone needs to say something to me or get a last minute thought out.
Thank you guys for everything, and enjoy yourselves < 3
we will all miss you! it's sad that your leaving but I know your doing whats best for you i'll think about adding you on skype. be safe and don't let anyone stand in your way your a strong woman. I'll always be your friend.
we will all miss you so much ashlyn you are one of the most genuine sweet funny people i have ever met on here and you are super fun to talk to as well :) it sucks that you have to leave i get it tbh ashlyn people can be jerks. but i will always be that person to pick you up when you fall and help you turn the page when your story of life gets rough :) stay strong Ashlyn because u are worth it !
AshlynArehart I don't use skype or kik. Check your mail before you go. Tengaged is weird. Huh? Yerrr, dis true. ...but life is weird so no surprise there. Being from Toledo, I'm sure you'll be fine with or without Tengaged. We're a hearty bunch. Keep your head up.
Aww I'm sad you're leaving but completely understand. You're a busy gal and I completely agree that this site is total shit now. I will miss you :(( I hope we can keep in touch and our paths cross again! Nothing but love for you my dear < 3
Friend Ashlyn I will miss you very much you are so kind to others and me as well maybe sometime you can come and say hello but if not that is okay thank you for being my friend I will never forget you :D
(Okay first off I didn't expect to get Sky, but I figure I may as well end it on a happy note-ish. Now here's the blog.)