about my ex. Not long ago, he told me that he STILL had feelings for me and hoped that someday I would give him another chance. Well, I found out that he is "seeing" another girl (who basically said something that wasn't nice about me, when I was dating him). After she said that, he blocked her on FB. But, it wasn't long after that, that I found out they were "friends" again. Now, I find out they are together, but not "officially" together. He also told me that her parents don't trust him, because they think he's out for one thing. Well, I hate to break it to him, but I wouldn't trust him either. Looking back, Idk what I ever saw in him. He comes across as being all that since he had weight loss surgery and lost alot of weight. But I know the REAL person and frankly I think he's a LIAR!
The first time we dated, we talked ALL the time: texting and phone calls. We also saw each other alot. I broke up with him. Then 2 years ago we were reunited. That was a roller coaster of emotions. One that I NEVER want to be on again. I am so OVER this guy! You know it's bad when your family and friends don't like the guy you're dating. The 2nd time dating, when we went on a date, we would end up spliting the bill. He never fully paid for a meal for me. He never surprised me with little gifts or anything. Unlike the first time when he would surprise me with flowers at work.
Another thing that bothered me was the way he dressed. When we went out, I would dress nice and he would dress kind bummy (sweets and a tshirt). Then his kisses = YUCK! There were 2 times when he kissed me, I saw something come from his nose, which was totally disgusting and a MAJOR MAJOR turn off. What did I ever see in him?
Moving on....I NEED to get over my shyness and talk to my crush!
my ex! Out of the blue, he tells me he STILL has feelings for me, regrets breaking up with me and wants me to get him ANOTHER chance. Well, you know what? You should've thought about that BEFORE you decided to put me on a rollercoaster ride that I didn't want to be on. Like seriously, one day he wanted to be with me, the next day he didn't. I even told him that trust and communication are two things that make a relationship work and we DO NOT have either of those. I also told him that he's OUT of chances. I also told him that I like someone else, that I'm still trying to get the courage to ask out (well, at least to hang out). I'm so TIRED of my ex. Then he has the nerve to ask me what 5k's I'm signed up for next year. Right now I'm only signed up for 2 of them......Well, one 5k walk (May) and a half marathon walk (June). But, I just told him I'm doing a bunch. I really don't want him to know what I'm doing. So, I have this to say, GOOD-BYE!!!!
I am going to ask my crush out. Here's a run down of things:
July 19, I was told about him from my sister.
July 20 - I saw him at my dad's church and every week after that, but never physcially talked to each other.
October 12- I FINALLY make the move and request him as a friend on FB. Then I didn't hear back from him until Oct. 27. Then Nov. 9 because he was busy with his school musical (he was one of the directors).
I didn't respond back to him until Nov. 14 and mentioned that I never saw A Christmas Carol live. But that I was hoping to make it out.
Nov. 14 he said, "It wold be nice if you could come, it's a fun show".
Nov. 16 I sent him a message telling him I was glad I was able to make it to see the musical.
Later that night he told me, "I'm so glad you could make it and enjoyed it".
Nov. 19 I sent him a message asking him if he could pray for my nephew (he ended up going to Children's hospital, but is ok now).
Nov. 22 he sent me a message asking me how my nephew was doing. I didn't hear back from him after another message he sent me that day.
Nov. 27 he sent me a message wishing me a Happy Thanksgiving. I sent him one back and haven't heard back from him since.
I was hoping I would've gotten a chance to talk to him yesterday at church, but we left pretty quick since my dad had stuff to do.
Ever since July, he's the one person that has been on my mind 24/7. I know he's about to get busy with things (Christmas program for his class at school, he sells tickets for his school's home basketball games and he's involved with his church.
Now I need to figure out what to say to him and how to say it
since my other blog was negged, I'm just going to REPOST it, especially since there is an update to it. BTW, there is NO reason to neg ANYONE's blog. Some people pour their hearts out and there is no reason to neg that. I don't do it to you, so please don't do it to me. It's so IMMATURE, RUDE and POINTLESS!
I went to my crush's school on Sunday to see their production of A Christmas Carol. When I told him I never saw it live, he told me "It would be nice if I could go". I'm still not 100% sure if he meant it would be nice if I went to see it because it was a fun program and the kids worked really hard on it. OR if he meant, it would be nice to see you. He was one of the directors in the musical. Anyway, after the program was out and the directors came out to thank people, I couldn't take my eyes off him. He truly is SO different from my ex. When I was walking out, I saw him, cause he was thanking people as they left. I'm pretty sure I saw a smile, like he was glad I was there. But Idk. I hope I'm not reading to much into this. I just sent him a message on FB telling him I was glad I made it there and everyone did a great job with it. I also said, "job well done" and asked him what's next now that it's over.
I'm soooo tempted to ask him if he would like to get a coffee or something. But yet, I'm holding back on it. I just don't know...My brain and heart are fighting with each other. My heart is saying go for it and see what happens, yet my brain is saying, don't because he's either not interested or likes someone else. Idk what to do right now.
But I do hope him seeing me at the musical was the ice breaker we needed.
***UPDATE***
He did write back to me yesterday (Sunday) and this is what he said: "I'm so glad you could make it and enjoyed it.". I responded back that I did enjoy it and it was good seeing him. So far I haven't gotten a response on that, so I'm thinking I have my answer. I just don't know. My heart is still saying don't give up, yet my brain is saying, "move on". Maybe I just need to be patient and see what happens. What if he does like me, but is afraid to say it to me? But at the same time, if he's not feeling anything, he should tell me that too. #GuysAreConfusing
I've posted about this before, but I feel like I MIGHT have made some progress. I've been talking to my crush via Facebook and today, I went to their production of A Christmas Carol. When I told him I never saw it live, he told me "It would be nice if I could go". I'm still not 100% sure if he meant it would be nice if I went to see it because it was a fun program and the kids worked really hard on it. OR if he meant, it would be nice to see you. He was one of the directors in the musical. Anyway, after the program was out and the directors came out to thank people, I couldn't take my eyes off him. He truly is SO different from my ex. When I was walking out, I saw him, cause he was thanking people as they left. I'm pretty sure I saw a smile, like he was glad I was there. But Idk. I hope I'm not reading to much into this. I just sent him a message on FB telling him I was glad I made it there and everyone did a great job with it. I also said, "job well done" and asked him what's next now that it's over.
I'm soooo tempted to ask him if he would like to get a coffee or something. But yet, I'm holding back on it. I just don't know...My brain and heart are fighting with each other. My heart is saying go for it and see what happens, yet my brain is saying, don't because he's either not interested or likes someone else. Idk what to do right now.
But I do hope him seeing me at the musical was the ice breaker we needed.
