Jake B. // Lemjam6
The funny thing is, before tribal today I was thinking to myself that if I survive and Essence goes, I think that I am going to have a real shot at making it to the ned and it would have been the first time I have felt safe in a LONG time. However, the game took a TERRIBLE turn. It went worse than I could have imagined.
Daniel flipped on our Final 4 Alliance. Not that I thought we would make final 4, but Daniel flipped on Mike and protected Essence just like I knew he would. I knew he was friends with everyone. Our alliance had 3 (at least) idols and we fucking used all of them at this tribal. I'm livid. Daniel was supposed to be my closest ally in this game and he flipped on me. He protected Essence, hid everything from me, and forced me to use my idol. Good thing I played it. I just had a weird feeling that with two idols played I could have received one hinky vote or something and I did.
Thank god I trusted in my intuition and I protected myself. In the revote, I wanted to take out Daniel or even Ahmed. I know Ahmed was with me in this vote, but I don't trust him going forward, but Wes and I couldn't get the votes onto Ahmed or Daniel so I had to say goodbye to Jacob. I really trusted Jacob, he was someone who I was with since day 1 and would have went to the end with so it sucks for me to lose him. And more than that, I lost Daniel. He's still here, but I lost him. He hasn't really talked to me, I got mad at him and he doesn't really care. He tossed me to the side. He realized I needed him more than he needed me and just threw me away and it hurts. I seriously had his back.
At this point...I actually trust Wes the most I think. Wes and I have talked a lot and he's someone who I think I can actually work with. We are on the same page on a lot of things and we know threats have to go soon.
To be honest, my reads have been pretty good this game. My reads about relationships are pretty spot on and my idol control was amazing. I saved it for the right moment and it sucks to use it when I only got one vote, but I needed it.
My game is in shambles right now, I need to get to work tomorrow or I may be heading to ponderosa soon.